Entry posted by Cassandra Craves ·
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As most of you may know, I have been under 145 lbs for most of my life. All of the clothes I've purchased over the years including some of my favorite outfits are an X-S or Small. (I actually just looked up what an extra small label looks like because its been that long since I've seen one!) When I traveled to AZ from back east, I left most of my personal belongings and clothing there with me. Not that it matters now anyway. The fast growth I've had in the last year has made it nearly impossible to keep up with what sizes to wear and worse yet, what clothes I can and cannot fit into anymore!
With the move and my most recent split with my former feeder, I have had to buckle down without being able to afford new clothing. This being said, I have like 2 stretch pants I fit into. One of which, has holes on the inner thighs! I told my mom how fat I was getting and although as she expressed it she "sympathizes" and it would "benefit me to start running again," she fortunately bought me two pairs of pants with ELASTIC WAISTBANDS. I thought those were only for maternity wear but I gave them a shot.
The first month wearing them I was excited! No worry about them sliding off of my waist or my love handles pouring out from the sides. Then came the ill truth I never thought I would experience...the gray ones she bought me, the button POPPED OFF. Oh well, I thought, I still have the robin's egg blue pair....then...to MY HORROR, I was on my way to volunteer at a rock & gem show. Volunteering meant I would be working one of the booths and the floor during the show. Which meant a lot of standing and being noticed if someone needed help with anything. I pop into the bathroom before my shift begins and MY PANTS ARE RIPPED IN THE BACK. I was wearing HOT PINK panties and they were VIBRANT contrasting with the light blue pants. I was MORTIFIED! "Omg, omg, what do i do!?" This would never happen if I was skinny again. I started to feel upset but remembered I was wearing a hoodie that day I could tie around my waist.
Embarrassed and totally understanding the weight of my size, I quickly became the fat lady who ripped her pants at the show. Let's see when the new year starts if new clothes are in the cards to stop the ripping, tearing, bulging and button poppping!!
xoxo Cassandra Craves
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