i grew up a religious lad and was raised to not be a dick head. family wasn't to in depth with living moral life, but my parents just wanted all the kids to be a right path. i often saw depiction of a young pre teen with a model poster in their room as tacky and in bad taste. i never took the "those immoral sinners" route
i just never liked overly sexualized women in media. i just never clicked with why people would want that. then i saw queen latifah in bringing down the house and i was like "fucking ohh, i'm just different then. ight" i would often just straight up browse videos of fat women on youtube...for like hours...so much so that a internet explorer pop up ad generated a plus size dating site once while randomly while was showing a video to my brother in later years... and that's how i learned about user data being used for marketing when i younger...i also member discovering a fat krystal from starfox on google images and discovering the realm of fat fetish fueled artists on deviantart and often explored many realms of fetishes similar. i just loved fat fetish art and fat furry art. they did a whole lot of wacky ass shit with their artistic abilities that i just mad vibed with man.
walked out of that shit show realizing that i was sexually submissive person who just loved the idea of being skinny with a fatter partner. still need to loose weight tho , but fat fetishism bought me a lot of peace in life. it taught me how to cum in my darkest and loneliest hours. i will always have a special place in my heart for fat fuckers even tho i've shifted to a more under 400 and forever anti fastfood type territory for moral reasons in shit
i may never be able to be into a feederism weight gain relationship and support unhealthy eating habits to bizarre levels. but i like understand it man. soft bodies make my dick hard