It sounds like you are not completely satisfied about your gain and to some degree regret that you are no longer fit and active. You say, "I rarely look at old pics because I miss the old me and I know deep down there's that skinny gym bunny waiting to be awoken again." Is that because your gain is just a phase? That you wanted to gain to have that experience in your life, but are most happy being fit? I might be reading too much into your comment, but don't do anything that is not mentally healthy for you. I think you look incredibly attractive as both a fit girl and as a huge fatty. Most women can't pull that off. Just make sure you have a healthy image of your own body. I've learned how hard that is with all the messages out there, many contradictory, about how women should look. Sorry if I took your comment and ran with it in the wrong direction, but I just thought there might be something deeper to that comment. If you chose to continue to gain, make sure that is what you truly want to do and we'll be here to witness how the extra pounds continues to make you beautiful.