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I had a substitute teacher in 4th grade who was a nice, busty, fat apple shape, and very strict. I found out she had a boyfriend, and imagined no woman that confident would date anyone who didn’t like her fat. Then I thought, if he likes her fat, maybe he wants her fatter.
At this point, I had already thought many times when being denied treats or seconds “Or I’d get fat” that I couldn’t wait to be a grown up, so I could get as fat as I wanted. I thought maybe she wanted it too and had found someone who liked it, and helped.
I started drawing cartoons of her and him together, her eating on the couch with a massive gut hanging between her legs, him coming in with more pizza and chips and milkshakes for her. No joke, I drew a feeding machine. 
This was in the mid nineties and we didn’t have internet or a computer, so there was no way I could know I wasn’t completely alone. I came up with most of the components to common f.e.e.d.i.s.t fantasies in a complete vacuum, which I can’t explain except to say I am born wired this way. These fantasies about my teacher and her partner sparked my sexual awakening. I started padding my clothes to get excited and get off. I fantasized about famous beautiful women I admired getting fat at the hands of partners. 
I made a promise to myself that I would never, ever tell anyone what I had to think of to push myself over the edge, because I thought I must be broken somehow, but maybe I could just keep it a secret forever and attribute the closed eyes to being lost in the moment. 
I grew curvier and curvier, and got exposed to more and more messaging about how I was too fat and the wrong shape. I worked out and dieted to get family off my back for being, in retrospect, a perfectly healthy weight. 
I did this partially to try to balance out my stuffings. I always loved to eat, but living at home, I rarely had the chance to really go crazy without someone at least noticing food missing, so aside from a few times when I snuck some groceries home, I didn’t get to ever experience the fullness I craved. When I moved out on my own, and had access to late night city food, I had my first real stuffing. I ordered 2 double cheeseburgers, double fries, and a large soda on my way home from a pub, and devoured it like it was nothing. I then went out to the corner market open late and bought a loaf of bread and herbed cream cheese, and finished the whole thing in my dorm room. I felt shame, I was already gaining the freshman 15, but I felt compelled to eat all of it, and afterwords I felt so, so good physically. Heavy. Stuffed. Glutted. I got off and passed out. 
I started boxing training 4 or 5 days a week, 2 hours a day, to offset the food when I changed schools, which was lots of fun, actually, I enjoy physical activity and being strong. It also allowed me to have massive ice cream binges at least once a week without gaining too much weight. 
At this point I had discovered online f.e.e.d.i.s.t communities and knew I wasn’t alone, but I was reticent to try gaining, due to social pressure mostly, and also because I didn’t have a partner to play with. 
I still filmed myself before and after stuffings though. I loved the contrast. I loved the overwhelmed bloating and belching. I deleted all the videos as soon as I was “done” with them, because I didn’t want anyone to find them ever ever. In retrospect I was creating amazing content that I should have been proud of, but these things take time. 
I made a couple friends in the community, one of whom I am still very close with. I met a friend who casually mentioned that she used to be a feedee model,  and was still a feedee and sometimes gainer. We hung out one day and she gave me a huge meal and let me enjoy it and just be open  about the pleasure I felt. She talked frankly about the benefits and detriments of gaining to over 400 lbs, which she had done, but by this time had lost weight and was closer to 275. Society likes to play things like once you get fat, it’s over, and your life will never be the same. In some ways, that’s true, your skin will not shrink back past a certain size, and once you’ve gained enough to make moving less comfortable, you will struggle to go back to some intense workouts. That said, taking care of yourself and making regular choices when you’re not engaged in play (stuffing for sexual gratification) is not actually that difficult. I found it much more difficult when I was in a constant state of self denial, because it was always “I’ll do this once more, then never again”. 
I do still like to plan for a stuffing. Give myself time to chose everything I want to eat, plan the menu, pick an outfit that will turn me on to try before, during, and after. Now that I’m gaining, I get the pleasure of feeling my fat move, swell, and bounce on top of the massive binge, feel how the texture changes as I fill my gut. 
I’m born this way, I love being this way, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. #feedeeforlife 

THE CURVY CANNABIS CAT HAS EATEN HER WAY INTO THE YEAR 2020.
I had an amazing big dinner to wrap up 2019, the end less meat choices were finger licking good. I wore some shape wear to dinner and was in a rush to get home and rip it off. I have had some dramatic weight gain and I must wear shape wear,  but even then my belly still sticks out. I have really done it this time, I needed help being released from my shape wear, thanks to my amazing feeder I was freed. 
 I have set my goals for the year 2020. My fantasy weight goal is 273lbs, that may not seem like a big number but when I first joined curvage I was weighing 189lbs... I am proud of my body. I am amazed at my appetite, I do have to thank cannabis for the help in getting the munchies. This is my only secret to gaining ... CANNABIS helps... keeps me fun, full, and happy. I rung in the new year at 235lbs and I am so happy and pleased to say that I am weighing in at just a little over 240 lbs as I type this!!!!  So my weight gain goal may not be a fantasy but a reality. If you look at my photos you'll see that my CURVES have grown, my breast are much juicer, the SIDE BOOB is so real! I spill out of my bras, my breast are so incredibly soft, ripe and so juicy. You'd think that gaining more weight and growing a cup bigger my breast would sag?!? NOPE I have the most perky round juicy breasts. ( check out my photo set coming soon) My ass is much bigger than it was on New Years day, I thought I had grown but this was an unexpected growth ... I walk with confidence but I feel something jiggling behind, my ass is so round. I love to get a spanking and watch the reaction on my feeders face he's surprised that I've grown so round and juicy, and that my round bottom is so jiggly yet perky. 
With the New Year came a lot of change. I am living in a new area ... where I can purchase authentic Mexican food, and authentic ingredients. I have cooked so many Mexican dishes and I have had endless servings. I am also so very spoiled to have an AUTHENTIC MEXICAN BUFFET about a mile away!!!! For the year 2020 I decided I would make more cannabis infused desserts, I am so proud of myself for baking up batch after batch of yummy cookies. So my weekdays go a little something like this .... I bake the SPECIAL COOKIES and consume them before dinner, once I am ready for dinner I am hungry but I also have the munchies. I eat my dinner and then I have another serving of cookie... along with some bong hits. I then have to have a second dinner because my appetite is soooo BIG. The other day I made a very filling Mexican dish ... I had my first serving with about 4 Corn Tortillas, I had some more cookie and bong hits after my first serving. After the cookie kicked in I had the munchies .. so I served myself seconds, still having bong hits as I worked on seconds. I had more cookie ... I didn't realize it but I was making nachos by the time the last of the cookie hit ... I was high and I had been eating for FOUR STRAIGHT HOURS. I finished the night of with an ice cream sandwich and some yummy Flaming hotcheetos!! I was one stuffed CURVY CANNABIS CAT. One day I'll have the guts to just record myself eating .... for FOUR STRAIGHT HOURS. Until then watch out for more juicy curvy photos and VIDEOS of the CURVY CANNABIS CAT. 
I am leaving y'all with a photo go my weight gain progression ... Meow Meow Curvy Cannabis Cat 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Hey everyone!
I have been asked a lot recently what my gaining goals are. To be honest I don’t have an actual end goal as at this point I don’t see there being an end to my gain. But I do have some short term goals. My first being I want to gain 30lbs by Christmas which means I have to gain around 2 pounds a week. I’ve been really focused on stuffing myself and pushing myself to make this possible. So to start this weekend I am going to make my first weigh in video so you can track my progress with me and thinking of making an update one every couple weeks. Wish me luck! 😉

So I just wanted to update everyone. My first weigh in video was posted the other day Fat Chat, Goals, and Weigh In! To be able to meet my Christmas goal I have some work to do. I am really hoping to shock family with how fat I have gotten. I’m looking into different weight gain powders so I can start adding that to my cake shakes to increase my gaining! I can’t wait for you to see what the next 3 months brings. 🥰

It’s a new year! Time for new goals. I want to make 2020 my biggest year yet. My ga this year is to gain 100 lbs. I’m going to be over indulging in all my favorite foods and having at least 2 weight gain shakes a day to try and achieve this. Hopefully my feeder is up for the challenge. Can’t wait to see all the amazing chances this year brings to my body. Please help support me and make this year a nice fattening one.
❤️ Gigi 

Oh my gosh, my belly is getting so heavy! My body is still getting used to the added weight. I went to a long concert the other day and after standing through a couple bands, the weight from my big, round belly had me feeling like I might tip forward. I had to find a seat to give my back a rest! Of course, after all that standing, I had to get a huge fast food snack, haha. My ass and thighs are also getting so fat and soft. I love the way they jiggle when I walk around, even more than before. I have a big ol' shelf developing over my ass and it's so hot, I love grabbing onto it.
I'm so addicted to adding new, soft fat. It feels sooooo good! I'm gonna attach a little morph pic. I cannot wait until my belly gets that huge! Soon!!! VERY soon.
Also, if anyone has any suggestions for future videos, feel free to comment! I love to hear new ideas! ❤️ 
 
 

Hey you
I really didn’t mean to be gone for this long. I didn’t even know I’d be this unwell. My leg has taken so long to heal, but I think it’s nearly where it needs to be. I’m waiting on referrals and scans to happen to make sure it’s all ok. Fingers crossed 🤞
 
On a lighter note I was a bridesmaid this weekend. I also sang at the wedding too. It was super cute and I really enjoyed it - despite my leg being in agony by the end of the day. 
 
Thank you for all your messages of well wishes and support. I love you all so much. You’re so so kind. 
 
All the love and hugs - from the fat gal in the pig tails 🐷 

Yes yes YESSS! So I've finally hit 201lbs!!! And I just had to blog this!!!Apart from the obvious struggles of being an actual fat girl now like - struggling to cross my legs, having to sit down when putting my shoes on,feeling a Lil extra tired etc.. I am actually feeling great in myself!! So you are probably wondering where do I go from here? Am I gonna continue to gain more weight? Erm hell yes! My next goal is 220lbs!! Lets do this!!🙌🏽
Gs X x

I have done something similar to this on my forum but I dug up some more reeeaalllyyy old photos and wow you can see the transition of  my self confidence on my face as the pics progress!! ENJOY!!