(Posting this here bc this is just been eating away at me.)
Hey, lurker/FA that has been thinking about getting into gaining recently. This is my first post here, and I have a lot of questions that came up when I thought of seriously trying to gain. I would've already made the decision to start if it weren't for a few things:
I am a high school wrestler who shows a lot of promise and even might have a shot at a college career.
I enjoy being strong and fit, but this fetish has already controlled my sexual desires for years now.
I'm also very much into health and medical research, so I already know the health risks.
I'm not really worried about the health affects, as mentioned above. I just feel like starting this early would throw off my wrestling career and distance me from my family and friends. My lifestyle would have to completely change for this to happen. My main concern is that the people around me would not approve. I know that I can already lose weight pretty well because I've had to do it for my sport. I have considered doing it after college. My brain is split in two, and I don't know what to do. If I were to continue to wrestle, I could go up to heavyweight (currently sitting at ~190 lbs in the 195 lbs weight class), but it would require much more timing and planning and also pain. I love the sport of wrestling, but if I want to fulfill my sexual fantasies now I would have to quit it. I've been chubby before, but I remember not liking it much (pre-"awakening" for lack of a better word). I'm split. I know this is incoherent and messy, but I need a place to get this off of my chest.
If y'all need more clarification (which is probably the case lol)l, I'll be happy to give it.