Tory

Hi, I'm new posting here, but have been around lurking for a while. I'm a 35 yo f. I've always had a difficult relationship with my weight, I gain super easily add have always had to work hard to keep my weight down. After getting really skinny a few years ago things have gone the other way and I've gained quite a lot. I'm still (just) considered a 'healthy' BMI, but due the first time I have a good going starter belly (I am pear shaped and usually don't gain on my tummy much) I've always fantasised about gaining, and find it a massive turn on, but I'm struggling to accept my new curves and just don't know how I feel about it all. I'm super concious of my belly rolls, they just feel strange, and my arse feels like it's following me around. I guess I just hadn't expected to feel so different! My husband isn't overjoyed and keeps mentioning me dieting, although he denies that I look chubby. Ladies, any advice on how to feel more confident in my new fuller figure?