Chubbystevie

I was too fat for my interview outfit last time, but now I really need to get a new one...

They said the high waisted ones would hold in your fat!

I thought this fit well and was doing a good job of keeping my jigglier parts contained.. but then my friend said, "it's too small for your armpits." And she's right, I just never expected that to be a factor in getting dressed!

At the two week weigh in, I didnt want to hear the number.. but she did tell me I went six pounds in the wrong direction I mean, I guess I see it..

The New Years Resolution for the office was for everyone to drop a category in their BMI, so all of the obsess people want to lose however much weight they need to be in the "overweight" category, and overweight people are trying to get down to "Normal." This enormous lady we work for waddles over to me and says "Glad I have a friend in the 50+ pounds to lose camp with me!" I am 5'4, so anything over 175 makes me obese. I did the math, and responded "I don't think I weigh 225 pounds!" She looked down at my belly, then hers, and said "Neither did I." I mean, I know I've put on a few lately, and I'm definitely over 175 pounds. Over the holidays, my newest clothes all became extremely tight and I could feel the extra weight of my belly spilling over the waistband of everything. I can tell my indulgence has added some extra jiggle to my thighs, and my ass feels heavier to lug around. I stuffed my face with every cookie, every pound cake, and every piece of fudge I saw anyway.. so, yes, I gained a noticeable amount of weight really quickly. The added pudge on my thighs and hips is making me walk weird, and when I sit down, I have to situate my belly into a comfortable position and get my shirt to cover it again. But do you think I really hit 225?? That is almost 60 pounds from when I noticed I was getting fat!

...Looks like I'm going to need a dress for the Christmas party after all. I had gotten used to my last fitting pair of jeans only buttoning under my belly and pushing it up into a huge orb. It was embarrassing how chonky it made me look, but at least they buttoned. But apparently I added a couple pounds to my hips, because now I have this bouncy roll of chub popping out of everything!

This accidental upshot while I was getting dressed just shocked me a little bit! I've been so focused on squeezing my belly fat into things that I didn't even notice how much I've packed on my thighs. They look so big!

Everyone has trouble buttoning their pants the day after Thanksgiving, right?

Today, I asked my fat friend if I could borrow some clothes. She has always been huge, and keeps getting larger every time I see her. She was always the friend that made you stop for food every night you went out, you know, the "fat friend." She was shocked at my request, and then seemed delighted to have me come over. I haven't seen her in maybe a year? Since then, she must have packed on another 30 pounds, her face was a puffy circle and her arms looked enormous. I tried to hide my surprise, but she was wasn't able to hide hers. "OMG, what did you do?" Which.. how do you answer that. I ate. obviously. She let me go through her whole closet, and I could only fit into one pair of shorts and one pair of jeans. I had to lay on the floor to get them on, but they buttoned! They're a terrible cut, though, and made these really deep rolls in my belly. Even in a tank top, you could see the rolls. Which doesn't make any sense, because she is still way fatter than me! I am not used to being so jiggly and wobbly, my chub used to just kind of bounce. She said it's because I've been fat a long time now. WHAT? I've been a bit chunky, but "fat for a long time" felt wild to hear. My struggle on the floor to button the jeans under my belly fat made her remark, "I need to go to the gym!" im not fatter than my fattest friend. No way. I'm just... a little squishy at the moment?

Maybe I'm not THAT much bigger... I can still put on my old winter clothes! My puffy vest doesn't button anymore and it takes a couple extra layers to cover my belly up, and everything is so tight that I can't breathe.. but they fit! 🤣 Or maybe I'm still in denial? I think I was about 160 in the old picture, that was right when I realized I had gotten chubby. Where do you think I am now?

I have gotten used to no longer being a "thin" girl. I've been overweight for a couple years now, and have leaned into being chubby. I know I've been getting a little chubbier lately, but once you're chubby, who cares exactly how chubby you are, right? 5 pounds here, 12 pounds there- you probably look the same to everyone else. They don't know you ripped another pair of sweats or snapped another bra, they just see a chubby girl.... right? But once in a while, like today, I look in the mirror and actually see what I have done to my body. I see why I can't put my arms flat to my sides anymore, and why picking things up off the ground is a chore. I see how enormous my boobs have gotten (that's a plus, right) and how thick my arms are with chub. I see how wide my hips have grown trying to support the size of my ass. I see my porky thighs that have to be twice the size they used to be, and it makes sense why my pants keep tearing. I see the love handles that are there even when I am naked, and that explains why all my clothes fail to disguise my heft. All of those places have become larger, which I can wrap my head around. But my gut is so much harder to comprehend. It didn't used to exist. It didn't just get a little bigger like the rest of me, I ate this thing into existence. And kept eating even when it became notice to other people. And kept eating when it got big enough to make me look pregnant. And kept eating until it was big enough that no one thought I was pregnant anymore. And kept eating when it was so wide and round that it tore jeans, then sweatpants, then forced me to wear my pants under it. When I realized I no longer had shirts large enough to cover the mass of it.. kept eating. I look back at my early posts where I could just pinch it.. how many pounds ago was that? I was chubby back then, but I think I have eaten myself well into the fat girl category.. maybe even obese?

Looks like I'm right back to the work clothes struggle again. I just bought this skirt in June, and now I am literally burying it beneath my fat belly and thigh chub. These last couple months must have added a little more than the 12-15 pounds I thought I packed on 😯

It's probably just an extra inch or two, but it feels like there is so much extra chub bouncing around, and everything I try on is digging sharply into me. Maybe it isn't noticeable to anyone else, but it feels like I've gotten a little chunkier?

I think I may have put on a couple more..

Everyone knows you aren't really fat until your belly sticks out further than your boobs. I know I'm rounding out a bit, but I'm not that far yet, am I?