Junko

when I met my boyfriend I weighed around 42-45 kilos or 100 pounds, really skinny because ironically even having this fetish, I have gone through eating disorders, before he knew this He told me that he liked thin girls, and that he liked my body even if it was not curvy, well it has been 1 year and 3 months and in one year I have gained more than 10 kilos because he started working in a restaurant and had more money and we always went out to eat, I got to weigh 58-59 kg, and keep in mind that I am 1.58 or 5'3 and when you gain weight fast is more noticeable, with a noticeable belly and fat rather than muscle. But he didn't seem to mind, besides he also gained weight, but anyway during sex he had some fixation with my belly and tended to grab it, even in casual situations like hugging or when we were cuddling, and he told me that the weight suited really good on me, still my eating disorder is more powerful than my pleasure so I started dieting and fasting again to lose weight, now I am at 53 kg and he told me he liked the way I look now but he missed my muffin top a little, he keeps touching my belly constantly and bothering me with words like "piggy" or greedy when I ask for more food, so I asked him directly, if he has a fetish with it and he told me he just liked it physically but he was not sexually attracted to it, he doesn't know I am into this and I am afraid to tell him, what do you guys think? Is it possible that he has the fetish or is it just something physical like he says? I still wish he could develop if I encouraged sorry for bad English