I joined curvage in 2008, I think, and at the suggestion of my real-life friend S77. I had always hated my body and felt that I was only attractive because of my thin and pretty face and big boobs, and that anyone who liked me must like me in spite of the rest of my body. He was a good friend, and we talked on the phone for hours, and one day he suggested that I check out curvage. I was shocked at first by the open nudity of fat girls, and it took me a while to stop judging them and start appreciating them. Eventually I even stopped thinking that the other girls were sexy but I wasn't. I had to make a conscious decision to let go of my beliefs that fat was ugly. I was afraid to accept myself as sexy; afraid that I was allowing myself to be a deviant. I wanted to reject anyone who admitted what they liked as if it was wrong, like a taboo. I realized life was too short to live in constant denial of myself and I took the scary plunge into body acceptance. My thread on curvage.com was a map journey showing me at the beginning full of apprehension and disbelief, headless body shots in black and white, carefully edited to be as flattering as possible, and later on really enjoying all the compliments, seeing that the members were not crazy rejects with a fetish, but awesome guys who knew what they liked. I made so many friends, and had so much fun taking pics and sharing them. I chatted with fellow forum members on msn and yahoo messenger, then on skype, and I even went on some dates with local guys. It was the most liberating and awesome time of self-discovery for me. I told my family what I was doing and while they were a little shocked at my boldness, they were supportive because it made me so happy. Oh, and video chat! I don't remember when that started, but it was so fun to hang out with people from all around the world. God, I loved that time!