First off, I wanna say how amazing you are for posting that reply and in a video no less. You are so brave and I am so proud of you for showing us your true feelings and emotions. It takes a lot to do what you have been doing and it’s something that I doubt any of the people commenting or asking will ever do in their life.
That being said, in this community and frankly in life you will never please everyone because everyone is different and you are only human. That’s just how it goes and you should only worry about and do what makes you feel the best and the most comfortable always. You are your number one fan.
of course easier said than done and it takes time, but I believe in you and i believe you won’t let others get to you with their words. I also suggest maybe talking to other creators on hear or in the community, you would be surprised how many come from similar if not the same background you have….