I think you are right, it is obvious, but I also believe that when you have a goal, what you have to do to achieve it is a mere procedure.
You have chosen this lifestyle and you may have to take some difficult consequences to assume at the beginning. You have a boyfriend who will
help you with everything you need and I am sure that every time you look in the mirror, all those bad things will no longer matter to you.
Cheer up and keep it up, every time you upload new photos you look more like a true goddess.
A hug