Here I am! On this lovely Tuesday afternoon. It's a busy week for me. I usually consider Tuesdays and Thursdays to be sort of "days off" in my life lately, but this week I have to do some wall repair work in one of the bathrooms upstairs, and paint it. I'm a woman of many hats, what can I say? I've done a lot of painting jobs. This one is just for my mom though, it's not like an actual job, which is why I'm doing it. But aaaaanyway, I came here to tell you some good news!
I don't remember which day it was, but at one point over the weekend, I was coming down the stairs, not running but quickly. And I started laughing because I felt my belly shaking so much on the way down. 😂 I haven't felt that in a long time. I was used to it back when I was 190lbs, but that was years ago. I figured you might like to hear about that. Now my boobies AND my belly jiggle on stairs!
I wore a bra in my last video that CLAIMED to be 34C. I dunno, I have a lot of 34C bras and yeah I've outgrown them, but the one I wore yesterday... I was afraid the thing was gonna bust midway through the video lol!!! It was nearly impossible to get it hooked in the back and when I finally did get it on, it started begging me for it's life. Skin and boobs and fat just pouring out of it all over the place. I'll post a picture of what I mean after this. I'd rather just include it in this post, but I'm writing this on my laptop and the pictures are on my phone and technology is hard. More news on these big boobies: I was laying on my bed one night and noticed how much heavier they were. Gonna have to be mindful of my posture so these enormous jugs don't cause me to unconsciously slouch. Last thing I need is back pain. Don't worry though, anyone who has been sticking with me from my beginning here knows damn well how I feel about my rack. Bigger please! 😄
I think the thickening of my thighs is starting to show too. I could see it myself, before. Looking at them from directly above, it's more noticeable. But it's starting to show on camera too and I'm like WOOOO!! Good! Here's something I think you'd like to hear about... I've been asked quite a bit if anyone in my life has noticed the weight gain. And my response has always been that if anyone has noticed it, they haven't said anything. I figured they either haven't noticed, or were trying to be polite, but yesterday my mom said to me "maybe you should do some exercises." 😂 She doesn't totally get it. Well, at the same time, there's only so much I've actually told her. She doesn't realize that doing exercises would kind of defeat the purpose here. There are some "exercises" I do, but it's more like yoga than actual exercise. Stretching, using meditation to release muscle tension.. that's about it. Don't worry, I haven't done a sit-up in.... I don't even know cause I've always hated sit-ups lol.
Ok so there's my little update on my weight gain so far. I love the slow and steady progress. I of all people understand how hard it is to be patient, but trust me, this process is perfect. There were a couple... a few other things I wanted to mention in a post here so I might as well do it now.
One is that I want anyone who may care to know that Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays are my busiest days and I don't have a lot of extra time to chat online. I just wanted to say that because I do feel bad when I can't reply the same day.
Two is that I discovered Amberlynn Reid on YouTube recently and well... I didn't "subscribe" or anything but I watched some parts of a few videos, just to see what a person does who is already BIG... she's like 600lbs I think..? Or she was at one point. It's odd how she has like 170k subscribers but almost no real support. Based on the comments I saw, she isn't taken seriously anymore because of things she's said and done, or should I say not done, in her videos. I dunno, I just wanted to see how a pro did a stuffing video or "mukbang" as YouTube calls them. I can say this... she made me crave the hell out of some fried chicken and crab rangoons! 😂 I'm not what I'd call a fan of hers and I'll never be that big either, but there's something intriguing about her lol I'm probably gonna watch a little more later today hahahaha.
The last thing I wanted to say is that I changed my "about me" portion of my profile here over the weekend. I want to clarify a couple of things.
I said I don't do nudes. I don't, but I don't want that to sound like I'm "above" it. I'm not above it, I'm over it. I've done enough of that in the past and I made a deal with my guy in the sky that I would never do it again on the internet. I've mentioned before that I used to be a "camwhore" for a couple of months in early 2019. The whole thing left me feeling like 💩 about myself. It made me feel used and lonely. Which didn't sit well with me because loneliness isn't something I'm used to feeling. That was a very slippery slope that could have led to me seriously screwing up the progress I've made in recovery. OH, and I remember... the very first time I did anything on a camwhore site... I'll never forget it, I immediately thought "this would be a lot easier if I was drnuk.” (Yes I know it’s misspelled. It was either that or have the word automatically changed which... no, because the word in my head at the time was not buzzed, it was drnuk. Fully hammered.) Thank God that whole thing crashed and burned the way it did. I was bitter at first, but now I see why it didn't work out and I couldn't be more grateful. So yeah, I don't do nudes, but I'm also not here to judge those who do.
I also said that I don't currently do customs. There are three reasons for that but I'm not gonna list them here. This one is subject to change and I may reconsider, but as of right now, I feel safer if I stick to what I've been doing.
This ended up longer than I expected but what else is new lol. That always happens. Have a wonderful day!!! See you soon!!! 😄