Possibly feeder boyfriend? Don’t know what to think

[Junko]

when I met my boyfriend I weighed around 42-45 kilos or 100 pounds, really skinny because ironically even having this fetish, I have gone through eating disorders, before he knew this
He told me that he liked thin girls, and that he liked my body even if it was not curvy, well it has been 1 year and 3 months and in one year I have gained more than 10 kilos because he started working in a restaurant and had more money and we always went out to eat, I got to weigh 58-59 kg, and keep in mind that I am 1.58 or 5'3 and when you gain weight fast is more noticeable, with a  noticeable belly and fat rather than muscle. 
But he didn't seem to mind, besides he also gained weight, but anyway during sex he had some fixation with my belly and tended to grab it, even in casual situations like hugging or when we were cuddling, and he told me that the weight suited really good on me,  still my eating disorder is more powerful than my pleasure so I started dieting and fasting again to lose weight, now I am at 53 kg and he told me he liked the way I look now but he missed my muffin top a little, he keeps touching my belly constantly and bothering me with words like "piggy" or greedy when I ask for more food, so I asked him directly, if he has a fetish with it and he told me he just liked it physically but he was not sexually attracted to it, he doesn't know I am into this and I am afraid to tell him, what do you guys think? Is it possible that he has the fetish or is it just something physical like he says? I still wish he could develop if I encouraged 

 

sorry for bad English 

[Fantasyfeeder86]

I think he has found out that he likes you being chubby. I don't mean really heavy, but chubby. It does sound like he is sexually attracted to it too. I would just relax and if you gain back to 58kg again just enjoy the adventure. He probably would not be super excited if you gained 20kg more. You could discuss it with him if you gain a few more kg and he enjoys it. 

[extra_m13]

my view... biased as the FA that i am is that you should experiment and get on with being ok with you. eat freely and learn to feel with more energy and curvy and love yourself and the boyfriend can either stay or go really .at the end , what we look is someone who takes us as we are and even if we change, because we all change through time so, the formula of trying to please the other part is always a losing proposition in the long term. so, lets go to 60kg my dear 😃