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On 4/4/2019 at 1:59 PM, John Smith said:

Indeed. I hope that this rape story isn't true and that it is merely but speculations based on her seemingly eccentric demeanor (expose her naked parts while behaving in public places into her videos, see a therapist, dye her hair in multiple colors, signs of premature aging and fatigue perhaps typical from chronical depression, ecetera) .

Ignoring everything else being said here...

Premature aging? 🤨

 

How old do you think I look, and how old do you think I am? 

Coloring your hair is not indicative of anything other than having a colorful personality and needing a change. 

Also, I was only 62lbs for a day due to water weight. My actual lowest weight that was maintained over a 3 day period was 76lbs. 

 

I did gain a ton very quickly. I stopped exercising, laid in bed, and pretty much lived on domino's, ice cream, and sweets. 

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1 hour ago, Delicious Delilah said:

Ignoring everything else being said here...

Premature aging? 🤨

 

How old do you think I look, and how old do you think I am? 

Coloring your hair is not indicative of anything other than having a colorful personality and needing a change. 

Also, I was only 62lbs for a day due to water weight. My actual lowest weight that was maintained over a 3 day period was 76lbs. 

 

I did gain a ton very quickly. I stopped exercising, laid in bed, and pretty much lived on domino's, ice cream, and sweets. 

Hi,

Please don't get caught up trying to understand bizarre things that some people will say

You're an absolutely gorgeous individual and we are so happy you are here. We welcome you with open arms and are beyond grateful for any of your time and content that may choose to share with us.

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4 hours ago, Delicious Delilah said:

Ignoring everything else being said here...

Premature aging? 🤨

 

How old do you think I look, and how old do you think I am? 

Early twenties.

4 hours ago, Delicious Delilah said:

Coloring your hair is not indicative of anything other than having a colorful personality and needing a change. 

Also, I was only 62lbs for a day due to water weight. My actual lowest weight that was maintained over a 3 day period was 76lbs. 

 

I did gain a ton very quickly. I stopped exercising, laid in bed, and pretty much lived on domino's, ice cream, and sweets. 

There has however plenty of behavioral patterns guiding to some peculiar personality set.

There has nothing of bizzare to speak about it. There has nothing wrong about being eccentric as well. Everybody here is, starting with the simps. 👆

 

Welcome on Curvage. 😁

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13 minutes ago, John Smith said:

Early twenties.

There has however plenty of behavioral patterns guiding to some peculiar personality set.

There has nothing of bizzare to speak about it. There has nothing wrong about being eccentric as well. Everybody here is, starting with the simps. 👆

 

Welcome on Curvage. 😁

Here's a secret nobody knows:

 

I just turned 34. 🧛🏻‍♀️

 


 

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11 hours ago, Delicious Delilah said:

Ignoring everything else being said here...

Premature aging? 🤨

 

How old do you think I look, and how old do you think I am? 

Coloring your hair is not indicative of anything other than having a colorful personality and needing a change. 

Also, I was only 62lbs for a day due to water weight. My actual lowest weight that was maintained over a 3 day period was 76lbs. 

 

I did gain a ton very quickly. I stopped exercising, laid in bed, and pretty much lived on domino's, ice cream, and sweets. 

You seem like a lovely woman and I hope that - a few wacky comments from certain members aside- you find a comfortable haven here at Curvage.

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On 3/26/2019 at 6:22 PM, John Smith said:

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Yoy may thanks @M.Y.15026 and @Honeyrider for this share.

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On 4/4/2019 at 12:24 AM, John Smith said:

63 pounds... she weighed 63 pounds. 

And she claim had been this skinny two years ago. 217 pounds in two years.

 

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On 3/30/2020 at 1:17 PM, Delicious Delilah said:

I did gain a ton very quickly. I stopped exercising, laid in bed, and pretty much lived on domino's, ice cream, and sweets. 

@Delicious Delilah
First of all, you’re amazing. So beautiful regardless of weight, but all the pounds you have put on are just.... ❤️❤️❤️❤️!

And how are you 34? Especially given all you’ve gone through, you just have a special radiance, I don’t know how you do it. 
 

Also, can you tell us more about the above? I’m sure plenty of us would *love* to hear about your transition experience from so small to so heavy and soft today....

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1 hour ago, dania201 said:

@Delicious Delilah
First of all, you’re amazing. So beautiful regardless of weight, but all the pounds you have put on are just.... ❤️❤️❤️❤️!

And how are you 34? Especially given all you’ve gone through, you just have a special radiance, I don’t know how you do it. 
 

Also, can you tell us more about the above? I’m sure plenty of us would *love* to hear about your transition experience from so small to so heavy and soft today....

I'm slightly obsessive about skincare. 🤷🏻‍♀️

 

Also, I've done a lot of fasting which is great for slowing the aging process: 

 

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/324347

 

Um. I got tired of bad stuff happening. I got tired of obsessing over losing weight. I got tired of being near death and wondering when it would happen and how long it would be until someone found my corpse. 

 

I tend to flick switches in my mind and go to the other extreme with various things. Isolating vs going out every night, eating everything vs eating nothing for weeks, never exercising vs exercising to the point that I get stress fractures and other issues, etc. 

 

I had a long term boyfriend I lived with who was mentally and physically abusive. He tried to kill me 3 times. Finally left him when he picked my kitten up by her neck and threatened to punch her because it was the only way he could hurt me. You can fuck with me and I won't care for the most part because I'm pretty logic minded with kinda shallow emotions (usually), but if you try to hurt my b**s I will end you. I threw a lamp at his head, grabbed my kitten, and ran upstairs. He followed and threw me into a wall (hazard of weighing nothing) and I bounced off and hit the edge of the pull out bed and sprained my wrist. I ended up locking myself in his parents room until we had to return to MN and our apartment. We had been house sitting for his parents in Bethel, Alaska for a couple months so I literally had nowhere to go. 

 

After we returned home I locked myself and my kitten in the second bedroom for a week or so. We ended up talking and I ended things. Moved to another town by myself. 

 

Then I flicked the switch from starving/exercising to lying in bed eating domino's and a gallon or two of ice cream every single day. I lived across the street from domino's and still had them deliver my food to me so I'd expend fewer calories. It was pretty bad. I started drinking calories which is a huge no-no for basically every anorexic ever and that really piled on the pounds. 

 

I could obviously tell I was gaining weight, but I was either always naked or just wore a giant robe so it didn't really hit me until I had gained about 50lbs. 50lbs on someone who is 5'2 is very noticeable. Even 5lbs are noticeable. 

 

I only wore really baggy clothes while anorexic so I could still fit in them so that was nice. I actually kept the same hoodie I wore at 76lbs and wore it when I reached my highest weight of 370lbs. It was still big on me. I think it was a 7x. 

 

I had to get a CT scan one day at my highest weight and I didn't fit in the CT machine. I was mortified. 

 

That triggered a relapse and I lost 100lbs very quickly and almost died. Ended up in 24/7 eating disorder treatment until I was medically stable. I ended up getting kicked out if the intensive day programming that I went to after that for throwing my food away, exercising, etc and was convinced I'd just starve myself to death. 

 

My brain has other ideas. It was used to being fed 7 times a day so I ended up gaining 30lbs in about 2 months. 

Flicked the switch and lost 30lbs in a month from swimming and basically living on vodka. 😂

 

I had a date eat a cupcake once and would kiss him after every bite so I could taste the sugar. 

 

I stayed around 260-270 for awhile.

 

I got raped twice in 2 months by different guys 2 years ago. While I was fat! I was very confused. One was date rape. The other was brutal. Pro-tip: Don't drink too much at the bar when you're by yourself. 

 

I realized that I got fat for no reason. Started kinda restricting again, but was also dealing with PTSD and stuff so I also ate a bunch of ice cream. I really like ice cream if you can't tell. 

 

Got sepsis a year and a half ago and almost died. Ended up living on junk food after I got released from the hospital because it was easy. 

 

Ended up stress eating for basically the entire next year. I'd get stressed about stress eating and then stress eat some more. 

 

Recently I kinda jump from stress eating to maybe eating 400 calories a day. I flirt with relapse on an almost daily basis. Occasionally I flirt aggressively. 

 

Part of me is scared to lose the weight because I feel like I'll attract too much attention again. I'm pretty now, but skinny me is quite beautiful. My eyes really pop when there isn't as much flesh surrounding them. I have big eyes now, but I have Disney eyes when skinny. 

 

Part of me can't stand the weight and wants it gone ASAP. If I could get away with cutting it off I totally would. 

 

Another part of me is fine with it. I'm a self-aware narcissist so I both love and hate myself. I'm still pretty somehow. Maybe my face didn't get super fat because I gained so quickly? I dunno. 

 

So I still struggle every single day, but so far I haven't jumped off the cliff. I might soon though. Mostly because I'm so bored that obsessing about my weight and calories would be entertaining and less stressful than obsessing about this pandemic. 

 

The reason I didn't take pictures during my weight gain process is because I didn't do it for a fetish. I was trying to destroy myself. 

 

This probably isn't the story you wanted to hear, but I'm an open person and I decided to indulge your request. 

 

I will say, I'm somehow more confident while fat than I ever was skinny. Technically, for the most part, I'm healthier. 

 

Skinny me's blood pressure was so low I'd literally pass out a few times a week. 

Fat me's last blood pressure was 90/62(72?). 

 

I have a minor heart issue from being anorexic and exercising too much while taking stimulants, but my cholesterol is fine. No diabetes (surprisingly) or anything. 

 

I have anorexia induced hypothyroidism. 

 

I don't believe in health at every size or any of that nonsense. I'm too logical. I do believe in doing what makes you feel best. I believe in embracing your flaws and changing what you can if you feel obliged to do so. 

 

I think you should love yourself regardless of what other people say. 

 

I've had plenty of people tell me, "It's such a shame you're a whale. Your face is so pretty." 

 

In fact, I just got this message yesterday:

 

Anyway, I only wrote so much because I have my Adderall and some caffeine in me. 

 

Don't feel sad or pity me. I've had a fucked up life, but I let stuff go and I'm ok right now. I'm mostly depressed because of this pandemic and the fact that it ruined a trip I desperately needed. The nice weather helped a bit though. 

 

You guys should go for a walk or sit outside or something. 

To end this overly long story I will leave you with this:  

 

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Kbaiii. 😘

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1 hour ago, Delicious Delilah said:

The nice weather helped a bit though. 

You guys should go for a walk or sit outside or something. 

You rock. There’s a lot of good sense in these simple words. 

Also, good on you for being who you are and persevering. Gonna take a wild guess and say that Julian dude...kinda blows? Maybe just a little bit?

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@Delicious Delilah thank you for that post. My mother died from anorexia when I was a young teen. A lot of what you said resonates. Plus, it highlights a lot of what mental health issues tie in with EDs. It can happen to anyone as I’ve also struggled, and it’s a constant daily struggle.

Stay strong, and do your best.

 

Also that guy is a dumbass 

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3 hours ago, Dirk_Diggler said:

@Delicious Delilah thank you for that post. My mother died from anorexia when I was a young teen. A lot of what you said resonates. Plus, it highlights a lot of what mental health issues tie in with EDs. It can happen to anyone as I’ve also struggled, and it’s a constant daily struggle.

Stay strong, and do your best.

 

Also that guy is a dumbass 

I'm sorry about your mom. Eating disorders are a bitch and they never really leave you. If you can find an eating disorder specialized therapist in your area, I'd recommend trying it out before it takes you over completely. 

 

I was in control until I realized I wasn't. Not being able to stop exercising even though all of your muscles are spasming, you're limping, you have stress fractures in your feet, etc is pretty scary. 

 

Argue yourself for an hour about whether or not you can have a can of soup and then deciding you can't is exhausting. 

 

If you can get it under control and deal with some of the underlying issues that would be amazing. Good luck. ❤️

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Another stalker (not me) posted a topic a year ago with some before photos, and a reverence of your backstory 😕. Dude. Your eyes pop so much more with a softer frame. With your soft, oval ,pretty facial features... you look like doughy eyed fallen angel... Craving love and support. I truly hope you find that that here. You're a 20/10.  Odd though, your hyperbole of self-control story and self-destruction resembles the "death feedist" fetish... it's an enticing brand of nihilism in this rung of "fat love". Addicting af.... From both a caretaking forceful feeder bdsm draw, and the submissive hedonist feedee; I know you say it wasn't sexual, but the parallels are interesting...

 

Eating disorders suck. And hyperbole. And... the candle which burns at both ends burns brightest. Yours is one I've looked at from afar like a creep & as a fan. Don't burn out ❤️

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