When did you find out about your fetish?

[awfultrash]

i grew up a religious lad and was raised to not be a dick head. family wasn't to in depth with living moral life, but my parents just wanted all the kids to be a right path. i often saw depiction of a young pre teen with a model poster in their room as tacky and in bad taste. i never took the "those immoral sinners" route

i just never liked overly sexualized women in media. i just never clicked with why people would want that. then i saw queen latifah in bringing down the house and i was like "fucking ohh, i'm just different then. ight" i would often just straight up browse videos of fat women on youtube...for like hours...so much so that a internet explorer pop up ad generated a plus size dating site once while randomly while was showing a video to my brother in later years... and that's how i learned about user data being used for marketing when i younger...i also member discovering a fat krystal from starfox on google images and discovering the realm of fat fetish fueled artists on deviantart and often explored many realms of fetishes similar. i just loved fat fetish art and fat furry art. they did a whole lot of wacky ass shit with their artistic abilities that i just mad vibed with man.

walked out of that shit show realizing that i was sexually submissive person who just loved the idea of being skinny with a fatter partner. still need to loose weight tho , but fat fetishism bought me a lot of peace in life. it taught me how to cum in my darkest and loneliest hours. i will always have a special place in my heart for fat fuckers even tho i've shifted to a more under 400 and forever anti fastfood type territory for moral reasons in shit

i may never be able to be into a feederism weight gain relationship and support unhealthy eating habits to bizarre levels. but i like understand it man. soft bodies make my dick hard

 

[bigboy1992]

@FedMaFedMaister you remember any other instances?

[bigboy1992]

I found out my fetish in high school due to one of my teachers, who had a nice pear shaped, constantly had her shirt riding up showing the bottom of a moderate potbelly. Only once or twice did it ride up enough to see her belly button. Another teacher was similar with her shirt riding up as well, but she had a larger potbelly for her frame and you could see her belly button through it. Both made it easy to focus in class. 
 

Though if I had to state my earliest experience, it probably was the passion patty episode in totally spies.

[Pancakes]

On 6/1/2020 at 2:47 PM, bigboy1992 said:

I found out my fetish in high school due to one of my teachers, who had a nice pear shaped, constantly had her shirt riding up showing the bottom of a moderate potbelly. Only once or twice did it ride up enough to see her belly button. Another teacher was similar with her shirt riding up as well, but she had a larger potbelly for her frame and you could see her belly button through it. Both made it easy to focus in class. 
 

Though if I had to state my earliest experience, it probably was the passion patty episode in totally spies.

My preference started blooming in 8th grade as well, although I didn't full recognize my appreciation for fat chicks until a few years later. Had a beautiful, plump teacher who I definitely had a crush on, but just didn't understand it at the time because "fat girls aren't supposed to be hot." I actually found her on FB a few years back and she had lost the weight ( womp womp ) only to have recently gained it back. 

Amazingly, what I thought was fat then is hardly fat now.

[Guest You're getting fat]

On 6/1/2020 at 11:47 PM, bigboy1992 said:

I found out my fetish in high school due to one of my teachers, who had a nice pear shaped, constantly had her shirt riding up showing the bottom of a moderate potbelly. Only once or twice did it ride up enough to see her belly button. Another teacher was similar with her shirt riding up as well, but she had a larger potbelly for her frame and you could see her belly button through it. Both made it easy to focus in class. 
 

Though if I had to state my earliest experience, it probably was the passion patty episode in totally spies.

I had a blonde high school teacher who was the one all the boys lusted after, she used to walk around the school like she was royalty. Then she got pregnant and she blew up. 

[Guest Mr Froggy]

When I was a child (like 5-10yrs), I used to think fat people were funny.  Like buffoons.  I have a mental image burned into my head of a scene in the animated Peter Pan where the fat 'lost boy' gets tied too tightly to a tree and it causes him to like gag and stick his tounge out.   I remember finding this funny;  the thought that you can squeeze and abuse large bellies and it causes the person who has them to have a humiliating response.

Fast forward a couple years.  I was probably 10-11.  I had a crush on a pretty but tubby girl who was 1 year above me in school.   At the time, I thought I was disgusted by her being so pretty yet so pudgy... but looking back, it was my first chubby-crush and I just didn't realise it.

At age 12, I started noticing my female classmates were starting to enter puberty and all getting little **-bellies.  I found it shameful.  Why, girls are supposed to be slim, I thought!  Women are the fairer sex... theyre supposed to be slim!  Men can be fat but not women!

From then, I discovered I couldn't keep my eyes off any pretty girl who had an unexpectedly pudgy tummy.  I used to stare at my female classmate's bellies.   When my parents were out the house, I would flick through clothes catalogs hoping to see a model who was slightly more out of shape than the others.

At age 13 or 14, I was on a summer holiday and saw the prettiest girl I had ever seen in my life to that point.  She looked like a young Natalie Portman but with a pudgy little gut.  I saw her a bunch of times but wasn't confident enough to talk to her.  The memory of her stayed with me for a long time.  From that point, I explicitly came to terms with the fact I was attracted to cute girls with disproportionately/unexpectedly protruding stomach

Through my teens, my tastes were very much 'pudgy normie'.  180lbs was way too big.   Nowadays, I'd go up to about the size of TayTay or Softiebaby.

I also discovered through my teens that I'm into related fetishes such as watching girls overeat, force feeding, burping, vomit and belly punching;   possibly all subconsciously foreshadowed from that same scene in Peter Pan as a child.

[Mason Brown]

I liked women when I was about 4, my parents say they saw me show an interest in girls at pre school, I was about 7 when I realised I liked women that weren't skinny, I was 10 when my preference for curvy, but also chubby and fat women picked up, I also liked skinny women's stomachs, loved the idea of women in bikinis, I never understood why when me and the other lads were talking about breasts, a women's abdomen was left out. It was year 6 (6th grade), this beautiful, blonde french teacher, she was fine, she had a slender face, but large breasts, and a round, feminine stomach, I remember one of the girls asking if she was pregnant, and the teacher saying 'no, she's just got a bit of a podgy belly', she wasn't in the room, but even though I thought nothing of it at the time, I love it when a woman's figure acknowledged.

[ShoeshineBoy]

I feel old reading some of these.  I always kind of knew.  My body definitely knew.  As far back as I can remember, I was stuffing my clothes and getting erections and having no idea what was happening at the time.  It is odd that I enjoyed stuffing my clothes because I had no desire to gain weight.  I was a bit obsessed when a pregnant woman stopped by the house one day.  Then there were all of the weight gain scenes on television, but the one that gave me this heavy feeling in my chest was from the animated Pigs is Pigs.  That was a very interesting scene for me at the time.  I did not have a name for what I like until I got access to the Internet as an early teen.  I would search for pictures of Anna Nicole Smith because she was all over the tabloids for her initial weight gain at the time, and she was the only name I could attach to weight gain.  I eventually came across a site that was all about some guy fattening his girlfriend.  I forget the name of it.  It may have actually just been Fattening My Girlfriend.  You kids now are spoiled with your tumblr and FF and Reddit and Instagram and everything else.  Back in my day, the only source for curvy women were day time talk shows like Jenny Jones and Richard/Rick Bay.

[TashiaGerard]

When I was a kid, I adored tv-shows about restaurants andWhen I was a kid, I adored tv-shows about restaurants and serving the guests. They brought me weird but pleasant feelings. I didn't realize why I liked it so much until my puberty. Turned out I had an erection to porn scenes related to eating. Just imagine - the eating pleased me more than oral and vaginal sex. But feederism is not my only fetish. I like foot fetish as well. I've tried many foot fetish variations while visiting mistress Nicole, her site just in case https://www.nicolebdsm.com/foot-worship-in-london/. I'm planning to combine foot fetish with feederism. It should be hot af. serving the guests. They brought me weird but pleasant feelings.

[finalhazardark]

One day when I was a teenager, I was going through some tiny old clothes I had when I was younger, out of curiosity, I tried them on. They barley just fit, like we're talking burtsing at the seams. I started to get turned on and tried finding smaller and smaller pants, I was just getting more and more turned on, eventually the pants were small enough that the button popped off, that was so hot to me, that it was the first time I ever orgasmed.

I then just kinda continued follwing that thread, tight clothes lead to big body parts bursting out of them lead to fat bellies popping buttons and it just went on from there, and here we are today

As for telling other people? Well... I've told a handful of close friends, but I only ever did it in an exchange to know their kink/ fetish as well. Usually most of them have gone "oh cool", sometimes even follow up questions, once it even provoked a girl I liked to ask me what I thought of her body (she didn't know I was gay at the time lol)

However just once, a 'friend' of mine I told was legitimatley disgusted by me, she just couldn't wrap her head around it and thought I was super weird (this was just after she told me about her fetish to getting peed on!) we were in a group and only she was put off, everyone else either didn't think it was weird or found it interesting, so they supported me and backed me up when she said that.

Needless to say we aren't really friends anymore lol.

[Guest Weight gain schadenfreude]

Even though I remember being attracted to girls when I was as young as four, I think I was a late bloomer when it comes to this fetish. I think it started when I was 14, in my first year of high school, maybe because at that age some girls I knew started to get a bit tubby.

- There was a girl I knew from school who had put some weight over the summer and her cheeks had become fuller. At one point she reached up and she revealed a surpsisingly flabby belly with a deep navel. Another girl who was next to her quickly pull her clothes down to cover her belly. I don't know if he was feeling second hand embarrasment because her friend's belly was visible or because it was out of shape.

- Then at PE another girl I had known for a few years and who was rather thin was playing volleyball and whenever she served her shirt would come up revealing a soft belly with a deep belly button.

- There was an older girl who was part of the school's "elite", model-pretty, blond hair, blue eyes, expensive clothes, but who was a bit chubby, and that caused conflicting feelings in me. I remember she used to eat gummy bears all the time.

- Then there was another older girl, the school's übergodess, the one that used to cause the world to go slow-mo and Barry White music come out of nowhere whenever she flipped her hair. On one occasion she was walking with her best friend (who was sort of sexy in a grungy way but nowhere near the goddess) and I was walking behind them. I noticed the goddess had put on weight and her ass now was noticeably wider than her mortal friend's (and it wasn't a gym botty, it was just getting sort of floppy). It was the sexiest sacrilege I'd ever seen.

[mickloud]

When I was really young (pre-teen), I had a fascination with cartoon characters overeating, but didn't know why. IRL, I hated eating too much myself. I had/have body image issues, plus being full felt "wrong" for some reason. That said, I would secretly roleplay (as a female character) and stuff pillows into my shirt -- a behavioral theme I've heard a few others here express. 

I also used to draw a lot, mostly comic book characters and the like.  It felt taboo to even draw anatomically accurate women, so I developed the skill to draw women in secret. Eventually, I started to share my drawings, because very few other kids I knew could draw beyond stick figures. 

As I got older, I noticed that the body types other boys thought were attractive (swimsuit models, actresses, etc.) did nothing for me.  When other kids learned I could draw, I'd occasionally get requests to draw a female character and I'd draw them to appeal to their tastes. 

All of these things kinda came together for me around age 11. In private, I got tired of pretending I was attracted to thin/athletic women, so I tried drawing women with bigger bellies, or at different weights. And one day, I accidently got off to my own drawings (and I didn't even know what masturbation was). Obviously, this unexpected turn of events meant I had to be even more secretive.

When the internet first became a thing, I started looking for stuff related to my kink. I was pretty sure no one else was like me, until I stumbled upon WG fiction on sites like Dimensions, the Freshman15 challenge, and another site run by an artist called Frostbyte (forget the name). I've been on sites like this one, trying to figure out this kink, ever since. 

[doomfeedee CLIPS]

 

 

This scene 🥰

[jellybellylover]

Growing up, a fat older teenage cousin girl came to live with us. She ate constantly and had a soft belly roll. Loved to see her in a bikini by the pool, fat hanging over the bikini, jelly thighs. Big juggs. She was very loose with lots of guys. Spank bank ….

[NikeLove1986]

1 hour ago, jellybellylover said:

Growing up, a fat older teenage cousin girl came to live with us. She ate constantly and had a soft belly roll. Loved to see her in a bikini by the pool, fat hanging over the bikini, jelly thighs. Big juggs. She was very loose with lots of guys. Spank bank ….

Welllll.... 

I guess you really really.... like your cousin to each their own 

[jff86]

I had no idea I liked bigger women until I worked with one in my early 20s. She came after me pretty hard to date her and I never turned back! However, I got a ton of heat from friends for years and still do!

[vpprof]

On 1/21/2019 at 1:00 AM, 69dudebro said:

How did you discover you were into   Feederism?

The oldest memory related to it was my grandpa telling me "I hear you like fat people" and I was a pre-kindergarten child by then. I saw FA porn for the first time at 8 and that was when I felt the strong sexual kinda "surge". The whole elementary school was me chubby-chasing and I had a few subjects to chase Then a few years later FatCelebs came into the picture and the rest is history.

On 1/21/2019 at 1:00 AM, 69dudebro said:

Do you have a specific moment where it all clicked?

Not really, I've always known about it.

On 1/21/2019 at 1:00 AM, 69dudebro said:

Have you “come out” per se to anyone about your kink? What were their reactions?

I talk about it with everyone once the topic of sex comes up. Parents, therapists, colleagues, acquaintances… My parents always change the topic whenever anything inconvenient surfaces, and my acquaintances found it mildly interesting but coming out was never an event, contrary to what one might expect.

Now for the most interesting chunks from the thread, which prove it's a thematic variation of masochism:

On 2/8/2019 at 4:59 PM, Guest The Bitch said:

Ever since I was a little girl weight gain was something forbidden and taboo, something humiliating to gossip and whisper about.

On 2/26/2019 at 1:14 AM, RandomTask said:

I wanted the carnivorous dinosaurs to succeed in eating the main characters (esp. the female ones)

what I like may have some connection to the idea of a female being fattened as a meal or being pursued as prey because she is fat or has fattened up. I think there’s something that appeals to me about her increased desirability and vulnerability having been fattened up.

On 3/4/2019 at 4:22 PM, Guest The Bitch said:

her belt became half undone so she ended up with her belt down her hips and her jacket open, displaying her torso. I remember feeling strangely embarrassed/horny because not only was she half naked in public but I was surprised to see she had a belly, which thin pretty girls weren't supposed to have. I guess there was some sort of domination subtext too. It was even more confusing because not only was I just discovering my sexuality, but in as much as I was sexual I was supposed to like boys, not girls.

On 4/4/2019 at 11:36 PM, couch said:

I absolutely knew about this at an early age, before knowing anything about sexuality or understanding it at all.

Earliest related memory is watching an episode of Rugrats as a kid (for the curious—"Chuckie's Wonderful Life"). In an alternate reality, Angelica is too fat to move, cramming cookies and drinking maple syrup while Tommy's parents are baking cookies and can't keep up. So, like a lot of people, some weird 90s cartoon made me feel some kind of way...

On 4/4/2019 at 11:36 PM, couch said:

Next time we saw each other, she (very lightly) incorporated some cupcakes into fooling around. It was totally cool of her to do, but it didn't do anything for me. It felt like a performance for me, though I don't think I would have had that insight at the time. What was missing was that she wasn't eating them for her, because she really wanted them, because she wanted to get fat, because she was turned on by eating them or turned on by gaining weight, etc.

= she wasn't addicted to food and not being able to help it (vulnerability)

On 4/26/2019 at 12:19 AM, ad91on said:

I remember fantasizing about girls getting fat before I even dated one

HOWEVER

I was nearly anorexic in my teenage years and had severe body image problems. So it took years to reconcile my feeding  fetish with my own eating disorder. I still feel weird, I love watching girls stuff but used to look in the mirror at my bony ribs and think I was fat. Has anyone else experienced anything like that?

= two sides of the same coin; weight gain perceived as a humiliation: this can go both ways, into self-hatred or get converted into sexual drive as any other traumatic feeling.

On 5/5/2019 at 2:32 AM, Sons of Windsor said:

Watching a fat woman eat is boring as fuck to me and not arousing. Watching a woman walk into a room noticeably bigger, and listening to her complaining about how she's been greedy lately is very arousing. 

→ food addiction, lack of control → vulnerability. As to watching a woman eat being boring, probably it was outside of the FA context.

On 2/25/2020 at 7:56 AM, Guest Justmadethis said:

At first I thought this fixation was schadenfreude, because I was basically raised to hate fat people and have a terrible body image. In actuality, it was cathartic to see female celebrities break the rules and enrage the tabloids by being fat in public. They became exactly what I was most terrified of becoming. It was so rewarding to see these taboos be violated, even in cases I wasn’t particularly attracted to the woman in question. I think that’s where my weight gain fetish came from. 

this is actually the same thing repeated all over, guilt → shame → being ostracized → vulnerability

On 2/25/2020 at 4:29 PM, Guest skinnygirlwantstogrow said:

Despite this, they said that I was "getting fat".

I orgasmed right there and then...the moment they said it.

being shamed → vulnerability, trauma turned into sex drive

On 2/26/2020 at 2:04 AM, grateful said:

I am a neurodiverse feeder 85% feedee 15%

Women are saving the world! ❤️🙏🌹

On 5/11/2020 at 8:04 AM, awfultrash said:

walked out of that shit show realizing that i was sexually submissive person who just loved the idea of being skinny with a fatter partner.

  

On 11/3/2021 at 9:14 PM, mickloud said:

That said, I would secretly roleplay (as a female character) and stuff pillows into my shirt -- a behavioral theme I've heard a few others here express. 

+1

[Guest Weight gain schadenfreude]

17 hours ago, vpprof said:

Now for the most interesting chunks from the thread, which prove it's a thematic variation of masochism:

Masochism OR sadism. 

[Guest Weight gain schadenfreude]

On 12/10/2021 at 4:17 PM, jff86 said:

I had no idea I liked bigger women until I worked with one in my early 20s. She came after me pretty hard to date her and I never turned back! However, I got a ton of heat from friends for years and still do!

How big was she?

[Guest Schadenfreude]

When slim, busty blonde Page 3 Girl Debee Ashby ballooned to 12 and a half stone through compulsive overeating and the tabloids went nuts about it.

That's when the fetish was awoken in me.

[GoldenGains CLIPS]

On 1/23/2019 at 4:55 PM, Darkusmaster123 said:

just

This was what did it for me too. It was my favorite episode so I loved when it came on. I also remember just being fascinated by big bellies and people getting fatter. I didn't realize it was a fetish until I was in high school and only really got into the community the last year or so. Way more people are into this stuff than I originally thought 🙈🙈🙈

[vpprof]

On 12/12/2021 at 9:40 AM, Weight gain schadenfreude said:

Masochism OR sadism. 

Yes, very true

[jff86]

On 12/12/2021 at 3:40 AM, Weight gain schadenfreude said:

How big was she?

She was quite tall(maybe 5'10"), not a huge belly, but a bit...wide hips and crazy thick legs...smaller up top. And as a bonus was freaky as could be. 

[bishop2g4]

I read through a good portion of this topic and have realized...I'm old.

So many stories involved someone finding FF or Curvage and then diving in.

 

Dimensions magazine, and honestly, before that, Jerry Springer. Those girls wore crop tops specifically because people would say they shouldn't wear crop tops. 

 

Like others here. I went through school mostly in the 90s. I honestly don't know if anything triggered it or if you're born with it. I just know you can't change it, and boy did I try to.

Eventually, I just kinda accepted it and moved on. I think the earliest moments I can remember were Jerry Springer fat chicks wearing crop tops wrestling each other over who gets to say the coked out loser was their boyfriend. Something about the way their rolls bulged over their waistband seared into my brain and it stuck for life.

I can say that when the internet came around that FUCKKKK was that great. Dimensions magazine was good. They had good stories but I'm not really a mature bbw fan or an ssbbw fan (yet, anyway, give yourself some time and you'll know what I mean). Then, you had yahoo groups. I thought that was a golden age. Then, youtube became a thing. Now we were really cookin. The Freshmen 15 experiment. Fatland.com when it was a thing. Eventually Curvage was founded and I've been on here opening up accounts and shamefully deleting them every so often ever since.

 

So...there's that.

[gohawks13]

An ex of mine opened my eyes to it. She was skinny and then told me she was turned on by weight gain. Asked what I thought about her putting on weight. Kind of developed from there. Went from 120 to 200 throughout our time dating. We hooked up again a few years later before I met my now wife and she had gotten up to around 220.