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Hi,

I love this thread and all the posts thus far. For me, it hasn’t always been easy to reconcile my feelings.

I am a neurodiverse feeder 85% feedee 15% and have been an FA all my life, starting with earliest memories of fascination with pregnant women and anybody getting fat or talking about it.

Long before these concepts were sexualized, this was my strongest fascination, and everything about size and fat felt “really important”.

Flash forward to puberty and everything was about fat and my FA ism was  set ablaze by a very pretty girl in the neighborhood who openly fattened herself up  one year and I would run to the window like a rabid dog whenever she walked by. It was unbelievable.

I was still very awkward socially and had to go through all the usual stuff in high school etc.

I had some weird dating experiences until my HS sweetheart who gained for me and the rest was history.

From then on it was totally part of my life and identity.

I have been super fortunate that all my partners have gained significant weight and made it part of our enjoyment.

The only drawback has been the nagging thought that fat is “unhealthy” and if I really love someone how could I want them to be so big?

But I do, and that’s a big reason why I am here.

All my partners have gained weight and enjoyed it – but I seem to need even more assurance that there really are women who are hard wired with a love of fat, as I am, and that they must grow – because their desire to be fat is overwhelmingly strong.

 

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I am what seems to be a rare breed, as a mutual gainer. It seems like almost anyone who is a feeder or FA, regardless of their gender or preference, is not fat themself. I grew up skinny due to living in a fatphobic household, but as far back as I can remember I have always felt like I should be fat. Once I moved out and went to college, I made good on that. 
 

In addition to wanting to be fat, I also always admired fat people. As a kid it was just a sense of awe and wonder, but it became a sexual desire the moment puberty hit. So I have never been sexually attracted to someone who wasn’t fat, and if obesity didn’t exist I might think I was ace. 

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On 2/25/2020 at 10:29 AM, skinnygirlwantstogrow said:

In grade school I was anorexic.

In high school I also developed bulimia along with my anorexia.

Two older male casting directors who were used to seeing me underweight with anorexia, saw me at a direct casting after my bulimia.

Although I had gained weight from bulimia binges, I was still under a normal bmi for my 5'9 height, but not the anorexic girl they remembered.

Despite this, they said that I was "getting fat".

I orgasmed right there and then...the moment they said it.

Ever since then, when I was maybe 15,  I have had this fetish which I have supressed until I intentionally started gaining in 2018/2019.

I am 27 now and weigh 133.50lbs from weighing under 100lbs which was my lowest weight a few years ago.

Girl : you've got a long way to go before you're fat, for you a 25 BMI is at 169 lbs, so you can gain 35 lbs and still be in the normal range !

I'm glad you seem to be beating your ED'S

you'd really have to hit 200+ to be really be fat at your impressive height.

I'd bet you likely hit a plateau at around 150-160 lbs and pretty much stay there, which is still pretty slim and healthy and probably a natural weight for you

best wishes,

On 2/25/2020 at 10:29 AM, skinnygirlwantstogrow said:

 

 

 

 

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53 minutes ago, FatadmirerDoug said:

Girl : you've got a long way to go before you're fat, for you a 25 BMI is at 169 lbs, so you can gain 35 lbs and still be in the normal range !

I realise this but fat in the entertainment industry is very different to fat outside of it. 

This is something I don't expect people not in the industry to ever understand.

I'm glad you seem to be beating your ED'S

Physically with my intentional gain I am in a way but mentally I don't think I ever will.

you'd really have to hit 200+ to be really be fat at your impressive height.

At 170lbs for my 5'9 height I will be officially overweight.

I'd bet you likely hit a plateau at around 150-160 lbs

I am still quite far from that rn at 133.50lbs but hope to be at least 150 by December this year.

If a plateau happens, I feel it will only be a great thing for me to get used to IF I decide to continue, which rn, is something I assess on a daily and weekly basis.  My vagina always wants me to gain but sometimes my mind is in conflict about it, despite all my orgasms bc I have gained.

Intentionally gaining is scary, exciting, scary, exciting every single day for me.

best wishes,

Ty xo

 

 

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During the 8th grade at 14 years old (hormones raging)... I was one of the tallest guys... a classmate named Sharon was one of the tallest girls... in Catholic school the nun seated the two of us in the last row of the classroom... our desks were an aisle apart... I knew that she had a crush on me but I ignored her... a fat girl who I didn't pay any attention to... she was about 5'6" and maybe 220 lbs... with large breasts and a huge belly... she was thick all over... cute chubby face... one day, near the end of the day, I heard some squeaking in rhythm... I glanced over... her left leg was pulled up and she was sitting on her left ankle... her school uniform skirt covered her legs... both hands were gripping the front edge of the desk... her eyes were closed and her breathing was getting louder... the classroom was noisy so no one noticed... the squeaking sound was from rocking her crotch back and forth... pulling with her arms...slowly riding her ankle... I acted like I was wasn't aware... then she made a muffled sound and her body shook and tensed up as she climaxed... after it sunk in I realized that I had sat next to a fat girl who liked me and had an orgasm in a classroom full of kids !!!... 

That summer we had alot of fun exploration hanging out at the community swimming pool... she let me fondle her thick fat body under water... and loved my hands squeezing her big round belly... how could I not have a preference for big beautiful women !!!... that year definitely shaped my decisions to this day.

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I can think of three things, not sure which was first, that happened around the middle of high school that made me realise that my preferences weren't like most.

  • We came back from summer break and one of the girls in my year had put on a noticeable amount of weight, mostly on her ass and thighs. My friends were like "gross", and I thought it was hot.
  • We had a substitute teacher for math for a week who was quite plump and had a huge ass. Again, I thought it was hot when my friends didn't.
  • There was a new girl who started in the year above me, and she was properly fat and super bottom heavy. Again, hot.
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18 hours ago, FatadmirerDoug said:

you seem to be on the right path, Girl !

Yes...I already know I weight more than 133.50lbs rn bc of how some clothes fit but haven't weighed yet

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On 2/27/2020 at 11:07 PM, skinnygirlwantstogrow said:

Girl : you've got a long way to go before you're fat, for you a 25 BMI is at 169 lbs, so you can gain 35 lbs and still be in the normal range !

I realise this but fat in the entertainment industry is very different to fat outside of it. 

This is something I don't expect people not in the industry to ever understand.

I'm glad you seem to be beating your ED'S

Physically with my intentional gain I am in a way but mentally I don't think I ever will.

you'd really have to hit 200+ to be really be fat at your impressive height.

At 170lbs for my 5'9 height I will be officially overweight.

I'd bet you likely hit a plateau at around 150-160 lbs

I am still quite far from that rn at 133.50lbs but hope to be at least 150 by December this year.

If a plateau happens, I feel it will only be a great thing for me to get used to IF I decide to continue, which rn, is something I assess on a daily and weekly basis.  My vagina always wants me to gain but sometimes my mind is in conflict about it, despite all my orgasms bc I have gained.

Intentionally gaining is scary, exciting, scary, exciting every single day for me.

best wishes,

Ty xo

Sounds so exhilarating! I'm jealous in a way. 

Does your line of work/niche rely heavily on you being thin? I mean within the entertainment industry it can be very different from person to person. Women like Lena Durham or Amy Schumer could weigh 400 lbs and it wouldn't affect their career in the slightest.

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I realized it when I was a kid, when I noticed the girl I had a crush on wore something tighter than her usual loose t-shirts and showed off her belly bulge. At first I was devastated. I thought, "I thought this girl was so cute and so nice, but I didn't know she was fat! This ruins everything!" Then a few days later I thought, "I still like her, and her belly is cute too. I hope she wears clothes that show it off." She was always slightly pudgy/curvy in school, and I think she still is. But sadly she always was self-conscious of her body and never was all that confident in herself. I ran into her a few years ago, and she hadn't changed. Still curvy, a little less pudgy and a very nice person.

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Guest FeederDave

I’ve always been attracted to the full size girls with a bit of extra chub, and quite honestly I only like weight gain in so far as they are becoming a fuller size. I enjoying cooking and making sure my girlfriends are well fed, and I’ve never been shy about bringing food into the bedroom. 
 

being a feeder for me Is more about the literal act of feeding, and I think that just developed naturally over time. 

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  • Curvage Model

I actually just recently learned that there was a name and community around this fetish and I’m so glad I did! Even though I only recently discovered that there were other people like me, being fed/stuffed/appreciated/adored has always been something I’ve loved. I’ve always been a chunky/big girl and I used to sometimes feel bad about it and try to lose weight. I played a lot of sports in high school and a little in college and that helped keep the weight off, but when I quit I ballooned. I remember always being really excited about dates taking me to dinner or cooking me food - it was the sure fire way to get me “ready to go” lol! I thought it was just the kindness of it, but one time a new date fed me brownies and playfully patted my belly while we watched a movie and I knew it was something else.

 

Time passed for a while without a similar interaction and I thought it was a fluke, but a few years ago, at a party, I was playing chubby bunny and it turned into being sensually fed marshmallows while people watched. It was like a light bulb flicked back on! I couldn’t believe how thrilling it was to me! Even though I still didn’t have a name to put on the experience it became a more regular event in my life. I’m so glad I was able to let myself explore and experience feeding and I’m beyond excited to continue to grow with the motivation and support of this community!! 

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On 2/27/2020 at 12:31 AM, bluetech said:

I am what seems to be a rare breed, as a mutual gainer. It seems like almost anyone who is a feeder or FA, regardless of their gender or preference, is not fat themself. I grew up skinny due to living in a fatphobic household, but as far back as I can remember I have always felt like I should be fat. Once I moved out and went to college, I made good on that. 
 

In addition to wanting to be fat, I also always admired fat people. As a kid it was just a sense of awe and wonder, but it became a sexual desire the moment puberty hit. So I have never been sexually attracted to someone who wasn’t fat, and if obesity didn’t exist I might think I was ace. 

I am also a mutual gainer,  but have never had someone to gain with...

I get turned on by the idea of feeding and being fed equally. 

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Guest Sweet Jujube

Didn't knew this a thing and I only saw old people liking fat woman. I was always a fat girl and there was a time I did lose some weight but that didn't made me feel better. So when I met my fiancee, a young guy that was into fat girls I was stunned.


At first it was pretty nice but after some belly rubs (I love that) and some feeding something clicked in me and I got totally into it.  He showed me some models, videos and explained everything, I found it pretty hot and we tried a lot of things.

One thing I got addicted to was pressing all my weight on him, sitting, squashing when he's lying on his bed. If you told me 2 years ago I would like to crush my fiancee on the bed I would call you crazy hahaha.
 

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  • Curvage Model

Now that I'm thinking about it I'm remembering watching CSI when I was younger and there was an episode about a fat girl who suffocated her lover by accident. It was set at this beautiful hotel and they were holding a curvy con or something. I remember thinking how hot all those beautiful women were while they lounged around the pool in their micro bikinis with their fat spilling out everywhere😍

I think the audience was supposed to feel sorry for the girl who accidentally squashed her lover, but I just remember thinking how hot and powerful she was. It was a really formative experience! I'll see if I can find the episode name....

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1 minute ago, Alexa, Butterball Babe said:

Found it!! It's called "Big Middle." I forgot all about this scene though! Maybe Greg was discovering his fetish too lol

Huh. I remember watching this show every week it came on before i started watching other stuff, but i don't remember this one.

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Guest Guyoftheweek

I knew I liked tight skirts and a very early internet search took me to a posted story about a young woman slowly gaining over a year or so.  I like thinner women, than bigger women, but the descriptions of the body changing make me flush.

 

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When I was younger, in the early 00s, I saw an article in a tabloid (maybe National Enquirer?) that was about how being fat was actually becoming in-style. It had a picture of Anna Nicole Smith and had tips on how to make yourself look fatter, such as wearing multiple layers of clothing. I had already decided at that point that skinny women in porn didn't have the same effect on me as the bbw women did and this article really turned me on early. I wish I could find it now, can anyone find this? 

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If the “fetish” in question is feeding, then that’s not really me. I do enjoy fat gals, overeating and weight gain, though. I just don’t feel any particular desire to be the direct cause of the overeating and weight gain. In fact, it’s much sexier to me if it happens as a result of a lady’s own eating habits rather than as part of an intentional plan to gain weight, or an overt court-press by me.

I grew up pre-internet, and I think that probably made a big difference in “finding out” about my preference. It happened over a long span of time, in dribs and drabs. When I was 12 or 13 (or whatever) I noticed that my eye was drawn to different girls from those my friends were attracted to…it took me a bit of time to realize that those I was drawn to were always chubby. (Unfortunately I kept this realization quiet). That wasn’t a moment of shocking realization so much as a fact that I sort of took for granted, while knowing that it was outside the norm. Even there, I repressed the preference somewhat by telling myself that I liked them “plump” or “chubby” but “not too big.” To some extent this was true – my ceiling has risen over the years, I still do have a ceiling, and those early crushes were indeed mostly plump – but it was also partly self-delusion. So only gradually did I come to accept that my ceiling was a lot higher than I first told myself.

Strange as it sounds, took me a lot longer to fully understand the erotic appeal of overeating and weight gain. The “Freshman 15” phenomenon in university certainly helped to improve my awareness of this. So did working in a cafeteria with a 20something female supervisor who routinely ate a lot of treats, spoken openly about being fat, and in fact visibly gained weight over two summers. My previous GFs had been either moderate BBW or just not-skinny, but none of them were real foodies. It wasn’t until I met my wife when I was about 24 that I really discovered the erotic appeal of that. She was 27 and three or four years into what would become 25 years of steady, consistent gaining after having been at peak slimness in her early 20s. Then about 170 lbs (and short), she loved food and made no pretense to the contrary. The sight of her always going for seconds, always having dessert, always enjoying any treats I brought her, generally indulging in low-level, day-to-day overeating – and occasionally really stuffing herself – was a delicious erotic discovery. Watching her slowly gain weight (5-7 lbs/year) – she is now well over 300 lbs – has been one of the great sexual thrills of my life. I love those moments when you’re struck by how big she’s gotten. When that old dress clings embarrassingly, when she quietly stops buttoning the last button on her overcoat because her belly is too big, when she leaves the last, then later the second last, PJ-blouse buttons undone, the first time she asks if I can help her put on her shoes, the first time a restaurant booth is too small, etc.

Yet even with all that, the ‘net still played a role in helping me to understand the upper limits of my “fetish.” Exposure to online SSBBWs helped me realize that, although I’ll never be interested in “My 600 lb life,” immobility, or disability, my ceiling is still fairly high. Self-stuffing videos made me realize that, while all overeating is sexy, watching a gal really push it is definitely on my menu. (My wife has been known to occasionally eat until absolutely stuffed, but she historically tends to be a bit embarrassed by those occasions, despite how sexy they are). So it probably wasn’t until my 30s that the whole picture fully clicked into place, to tell the truth.

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