When did you find out about your fetish?

[TomBoyDeviant]

People i live in italy...all of you are lucky if you think of my perspection...here the "body positive movement" is still in the underground and you can't really be fat and beautiful in a certain sense

[Hotline_Dave]

On 3/3/2019 at 8:45 PM, Batman76 said:

There was some shitty fantasy book I was reading, where a fighter, a thief and a wizard are getting ready to rob a dungeon. The wizard has an ear ring to the hot red headed thief that let's you hear things incredibly well. to demonstrate, he leans in very close to the fighter and whispers incredibly quietly:

'I think thief is gaining weight.'

And life time of fetish right there.

I'm gonna need the title of that book for research. 

Mine was actually similar, and involves books as well. When I were a wee lad my mother would read me things from the library, and one time it was this book called 'The Fairy Rebel' which has plump characters, corruption, greed, and weight gain. Another example would be the first book of the pendragon series, where the main characters go to a different world which has a race of flabby overseeing rulers who are all soft lazy and fat, with their queen being the most so. 

[Batman76]

3 hours ago, Hotline_Dave said:

I'm gonna need the title of that book for research. 

Mine was actually similar, and involves books as well. When I were a wee lad my mother would read me things from the library, and one time it was this book called 'The Fairy Rebel' which has plump characters, corruption, greed, and weight gain. Another example would be the first book of the pendragon series, where the main characters go to a different world which has a race of flabby overseeing rulers who are all soft lazy and fat, with their queen being the most so. 

"Temple Hill" it was a DnD book, but that was literally it.

 

fairy rebel sounds interesting.

 

i remember Knights castle had these kids messing with the story of Ivanhoe via their play castle. One day they add a bunch of modern tech and when entering the story find that Lady Rowena, the hot love interest, has channeled her libido into food and is constantly eating modern junk food, having become very plump.

[Guest SKFHh]

Reading one of the Travis McGee novels John D McDonald when I was about 13.

I think it's called the Deep Blue Goodbye.

There's a point where he describes seeing a girl sunbathing from far away and she looks really hot, but then up close she's got fat thighs and her belly is bulging over her bikini bottoms.

It's supposed to be negative, but I read that part over and over again as a teenager and never really knew why.

Then the first girl I ever had a crush on got kinda chubby when we were still in school and I knew I had a thing for bigger girls

[Guest The Bitch]

On 3/17/2019 at 11:11 PM, SKFHh said:

Reading one of the Travis McGee novels John D McDonald when I was about 13.

I think it's called the Deep Blue Goodbye.

There's a point where he describes seeing a girl sunbathing from far away and she looks really hot, but then up close she's got fat thighs and her belly is bulging over her bikini bottoms.

It's supposed to be negative, but I read that part over and over again as a teenager and never really knew why.

Then the first girl I ever had a crush on got kinda chubby when we were still in school and I knew I had a thing for bigger girls

 

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Deeleen got up and came clambering slowly and cautiously down into the cockpit. At a thirty-foot distance she was a very attractive, ripe-bodied young girl. At close range the coarseness, and the sleaziness of the materials used in construction were all too evident. Her tanned hide had a coarse and grainy look. Her crinkle of putty-colored hair looked lifeless as a Dynel wig. The strictures of the bottom half of the bikini cut into the belly softness of too many beers and shakes, hamburger rolls and french fries. The meat of her thighs had a sedentary looseness. Her throat and her ankles and the underside of her wrists were faintly shadowed with grime. There was a coppery stubble in her armpits, and a bristle of unshaven hair on her legs, cracked red enamel on her toenails. The breast band of the bikini was just enough askew to reveal a brown newmoon segment of the nipple of her right breast.

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Deeleen gave a little shrug of acceptance and slumped into a canvas chair, spraddled and hot. There was a little roll of fat around her waist. She hitched the bikini top up. High against the meat of the insides of her thighs a fringe of pubic hair escaped the scanty fabric which encased the plump and obvious pudendum. A few years ago she would have been breathtakingly ripe, and even now, in night light, with drinks and laughter, there would be all the illusions of freshness and youth and desirability. But in this cruelty of sunlight, in this, her twentieth year, she was a record of everything she had let them do to her. Too many trips to too many storerooms had worn the bloom away. The freshness had been romped out in sweat and excess. The body reflects the casual abrasions of the spirit, so that now she could slump in her meaty indifference, as immunized to tenderness as a whore at a clinic.

 

I think I like John D. McDonald very much. 😁

[Pancakes]

I had already made the realization that I liked chubby girls (though they weren't yet necessarily my preference). Then I saw an old break.com video where someone morphed a fat girl into a skinny girl, which really stimulated a keen interest in seeing the opposite. Ultimately discovered FF, curvage, and the rest was history.

[couch]

tl;dr - Definitely knew about it before I knew of/understood sexuality, gravitated away from it possibly due to shame and societal norms, had a "conventional" sexual experience growing up, and reconnected in my early-20s. In early-30s now, and this primarily defines my sexuality though I haven't told anyone, have never acted on it, and relegate it to my fantasies. 

I absolutely knew about this at an early age, before knowing anything about sexuality or understanding it at all.

Earliest related memory is watching an episode of Rugrats as a kid (for the curious—"Chuckie's Wonderful Life"). In an alternate reality, Angelica is too fat to move, cramming cookies and drinking maple syrup while Tommy's parents are baking cookies and can't keep up. So, like a lot of people, some weird 90s cartoon made me feel some kind of way...

As a kid, I would sometimes go to sleep imagining girls in my class gaining a lot of weight. Probably around third grade, I remember drawing a picture of my crush as massively fat and bursting out of her clothes. I felt guilty about it, labeled it "wrong," then drew another where she and I were "normal" sized and labeled that one "right." I drew myself playing violin for her at a table with a red and white checkered tablecloth, which, in retrospect, is a hilarious and sad romance trope.

I remember talking about erections with friends for the first time at school probably not too long after. I hadn't heard the word "boner" before, and I almost said something along the lines of "Oh, you mean that thing that happens when you think about naked or fat women?" Pretty sure I remember someone interrupting me or speaking first and not mentioning fat women at all, so I think I inferred that no one else had that same feeling. I remember feeling relieved I hadn't said anything, but pretty sure that had an effect on me. I must have repressed that sentiment for a long time afterward.

I had what I would think is a typical middle/high school/college/post-college sexual experience. I dated a lot and all that, but I wasn't aware of or in touch with a fat-centric sexuality really at all. After college, I was talking to my then-girlfriend on the phone after I'd had a few drinks. I remember trying to articulate something, but only vaguely expressed "an association with food and sex." I wasn't trying to hide anything or "test the waters," but I think that latent desire just came up out of nowhere. Next time we saw each other, she (very lightly) incorporated some cupcakes into fooling around. It was totally cool of her to do, but it didn't do anything for me. It felt like a performance for me, though I don't think I would have had that insight at the time. What was missing was that she wasn't eating them for her, because she really wanted them, because she wanted to get fat, because she was turned on by eating them or turned on by gaining weight, etc.

Fast forward a while, I googled "food porn" or something along those lines on a whim and eventually found all these sites. That was seven or eight years ago, and since then, this has definitely defined my sexuality, but is also a genuine interest in a non-sexual or cultural way, if that makes sense. I don't act and have never acted on it in reality though, so it's mostly relegated to my fantasy life, which I would say is pretty rich.

[Uk45]

I can easily say when my fat fetish kind-of started, but feederism is a tough one. Back when I was in primary school I imagined all sorts of situations where girls become fat, but none of those imaginary situations featured me encouraging them to get fat. 

I assume searching stuff like "fat girls" on the Internet when I was younger eventually led to feederism.

[Arimnestos]

So, i'm not fully sure where it all started for me, i only realised what i was into about 4 years ago (I'm 14 FYI) and i stumbled across this video on youtube. It was this video of two women, one was black haired and slightly chubby and the other was blonde and quite skinny. Basically the blonde one got force fed and she got really bloated and i just thought that looked great.

And the only person i've told is a close friend a couple months ago and her reaction was surprisingly chilled, i haven't gone into full detail about the fetish with her but she was cool with it and pretty shocked i kept it a secret for 4 years. 

[cupido]

On ‎3‎/‎13‎/‎2019 at 9:38 PM, Anonymous$$ said:

People i live in italy...all of you are lucky if you think of my perspection...here the "body positive movement" is still in the underground and you can't really be fat and beautiful in a certain sense

Have you been to Naples?

That was fat woman paradise

[Random541]

I must have found out when I was about 12 ish. I remember seeing girls online with huge boobs and thinking how much bigger can they get and that turned me on. Then I realised that applied to the rest of the body as well. I haven’t told anyone about it (I’m 19) as I’m just not confident enough about it. Maybe one day. I was in a 2 year relationship recently with this cute girl who I always secretly wanted to make chubbier but couldn’t tell her about this fetish. At the start it was just hints that she looks still beautiful when she was “bloated” from a meal but as time got on I tried to bring her food and stuff just nothing worked. She’s around average weight maybe slightly skinny 135lbs 5’5 and my age. Thing is it was the worst scenario for me because her parents clearly have the same fetish as her mum who isn’t small herself used to cook insane amounts of food and her dad was no word of a lie about 600lbs. He was tall too but barely could walk, just sat on the chair all day, no job. Obviously that discouraged her from eating as I could imagine and it was so frustrating. I never told her about the fetish in the end but she knew that I wanted her chubbier but never happened. I never forced anything and if she wanted to go gym I was supportive but privately annoyed simultaneously. Got to the point that we’d have sex right after dinner as she would bloat a lot and that’s the best I would get. Maybe it’s best it ended as that is literally the worst situation I could want a girl I wanted, to be in. Annoying how there’s a also a bigger girl that really likes me, she’s maybe a bit bigger than what I would like though. I just want to find someone medium weight like my ex and feed them up to make them chubby. Why is it so hard???

[Great Admirer]

if my fetish isn't feederism but only curvy women am i still welcome to answer?

[John Smith]

5 hours ago, Great Admirer said:

if my fetish isn't feederism but only curvy women am i still welcome to answer?

Absolutely.

[FedMaFedMaister]

When I was 7 one of my mother's friends had the best "accident" ever... We were eating all together and while I was drinking water I heard her burping bit luckily the most of the people were on the sofa only me and her were at the kitchen and then she said "who cares.. Huh" and after that I hear a bam and yeah she pop her button and she was like "I will gain as much weight as I can" that was almost nothing to me... But a few days later I went to her house cuz my mother had her cooking book for a cake anyway I went in and saw her being on the kitchen eating she told me to come in and sit down with her to eat... I said no by saying "I don't want to be fat like you " and then she said "you will see" I had to see her a month I think and when I saw her something hit me like a spark... She was bigger like BIGGER and I was like "what happend to you" and answer with her hand on the belly "i always wanted to be fat" and I didn't ask much but I loved the way she was staring at me... I asked her if she had any candies to her house and she said"lets go and eat them"... When we joined the house she was like "uhh finally home" she started eating like a pig I was kinda scared but I liked it but when she pop up her leather belt and her button off the jeans I knew it 

[Deadpool 2]

1 hour ago, FedMaFedMaister said:

When I was 7 one of my mother's friends had the best "accident" ever... We were eating all together and while I was drinking water I heard her burping bit luckily the most of the people were on the sofa only me and her were at the kitchen and then she said "who cares.. Huh" and after that I hear a bam and yeah she pop her button and she was like "I will gain as much weight as I can" that was almost nothing to me... But a few days later I went to her house cuz my mother had her cooking book for a cake anyway I went in and saw her being on the kitchen eating she told me to come in and sit down with her to eat... I said no by saying "I don't want to be fat like you " and then she said "you will see" I had to see her a month I think and when I saw her something hit me like a spark... She was bigger like BIGGER and I was like "what happend to you" and answer with her hand on the belly "i always wanted to be fat" and I didn't ask much but I loved the way she was staring at me... I asked her if she had any candies to her house and she said"lets go and eat them"... When we joined the house she was like "uhh finally home" she started eating like a pig I was kinda scared but I liked it but when she pop up her leather belt and her button off the jeans I knew it 

This sounds way to good to be true ? 

[FedMaFedMaister]

On 4/24/2019 at 5:57 AM, Deadpool 2 said:

This sounds way to good to be true ? 

Idk my friend I just wrote my story if you don't believe me it's cool I won't try to change your mind 

[nuttpirate]

I must have been about 10 or 11 and found this old website where these 3 people were gaining weight as a competition. Y'all would know it I forget the name. 

I remember fantasizing about girls getting fat before I even dated one but I didn't realise my fetish until I was 19 or 20 an didn't fully accept it until 23 or so. 

My first gf put on circa 20kg in 2 years and omg was it exciting! I remember her getting out of breath going up the stairs with these unbuttoned skintight jeans on then going straight to the fridge to get food and sit on the couch. 

Now when I'm with my friends and I double take the fat girl in a group of girls they just know I'm looking for future wife! I'm pretty open about it. Not the feeding part, the I like fat girls part. 

HOWEVER

I was nearly anorexic in my teenage years and had severe body image problems. So it took years to reconcile my feeding  fetish with my own eating disorder. I still feel weird, I love watching girls stuff but used to look in the mirror at my bony ribs and think I was fat. Has anyone else experienced anything like that?

[Lilyp5]

On 4/25/2019 at 6:19 PM, ad91on said:

I was nearly anorexic in my teenage years and had severe body image problems. So it took years to reconcile my feeding  fetish with my own eating disorder. I still feel weird, I love watching girls stuff but used to look in the mirror at my bony ribs and think I was fat. Has anyone else experienced anything like that?

My mom poisoned everything I was fed from birth to 13 years old so I "lost" everything I ate that didn't come from a can. I was skeletal. Then college to a few years after college, poverty did much the same. If I have to not eat for a couple weeks again, I want a couple months worth already stuck on me. Wasn't an eating disorder, but the closest I can come.

Wanting to make others fatter, I'm not sure. Maybe it's racial. If you leave an Italian woman's kitchen without eating something she's failed. Maybe fat folks are the ones who eat when I offer food, maybe I want for others what I didn't get to have, maybe I want to be half a fat couple? Not certain.

[ScammarOne]

I was 14 and it came to me in a dream. I'm 35 now and I have tried not to let it infringe on reality too much. I didn't want my lust to overtake my life. But after my partner gained weight having twins, I started encouraging her to gain. Six years on she's starting to warm to it a little. It's a tough fetish.

She knows, but has trouble letting go of the skinny stereotypes, particularly given she was near anoexic at one stage. In one sense I'm glad. Nothing like a challenge and she'd be flipping huge now if I'd had my way. As it is, she's just a little plump around the edges and super cute with it. Love her and it seems a reasonable balance so far, despite requiring effort from both sides.

 

 

[Sons of Windsor]

On 4/4/2019 at 10:36 PM, couch said:

Earliest related memory is watching an episode of Rugrats as a kid (for the curious—"Chuckie's Wonderful Life"). In an alternate reality, Angelica is too fat to move, cramming cookies and drinking maple syrup while Tommy's parents are baking cookies and can't keep up. So, like a lot of people, some weird 90s cartoon made me feel some kind of way...

I can totally relate to this, I saw that episode as a kid too. I also remember the media storm over "fat" Geri Halliwell in the Union Jack dress as well -- something that seems ridiculous now because looking at the pictures she doesn't even look remotely fat at all. I remember as a kid drawing Geri in the same dress, then drawing her again fatter and with the dress smaller, and again and again, fatter and fatter, until I had drawn an SSBBW Geri in a tiny Union Jack dress. I ripped up the drawing right after.

Then I think a few years later when we got the Internet I somehow stumbled across www.lardbiscuit.com and read this blog about how how the blog writer liked the idea of a woman eating food and getting bigger. I remember thinking "That sounds just like me."

It would be a few more years before I saw my first Before and Afters. It was Kerrie Marie. The first image must've been her when she was 18, lean and skinny and in swimwear. One by one the images showed her getting bigger, fatter and fatter, and I don't think I've ever been so turned on outside of actually having sex. At the final image it was Kerry at her biggest and I my eyes were just gorging on pure sexual delight.

Here's a picture of Geri Halliwell in the dress:

 

EDIT: It should be said that I'm not really into feederism. I'm into weight gain. The sound the same but after much soul-searching I believe there is a difference. Watching a fat woman eat is boring as fuck to me and not arousing. Watching a woman walk into a room noticeably bigger, and listening to her complaining about how she's been greedy lately is very arousing. 

[Guest Justmadethis]

I keep deleting my account so that I won’t vent on the internet but oh well.

Anyway, my trigger was weight loss commercials when I was 12 or 13. I had suppressed my attraction for a while because of my ultra fatphobic upbringing, but when I realized how much more I liked the before pictures, I was forced to acknowledge the truth; Im only attracted to fat girls, so that’s the kind of girl I must be with. There was a sort of comforting certainty in knowing that I absolutely have to be with a fat girl no matter what society says about it. 

[Guest Justmadethis]

On 5/4/2019 at 7:32 PM, Sons of Windsor said:

I can totally relate to this, I saw that episode as a kid too. I also remember the media storm over "fat" Geri Halliwell in the Union Jack dress as well -- something that seems ridiculous now because looking at the pictures she doesn't even look remotely fat at all. I remember as a kid drawing Geri in the same dress, then drawing her again fatter and with the dress smaller, and again and again, fatter and fatter, until I had drawn an SSBBW Geri in a tiny Union Jack dress. I ripped up the drawing right after.

Then I think a few years later when we got the Internet I somehow stumbled across www.lardbiscuit.com and read this blog about how how the blog writer liked the idea of a woman eating food and getting bigger. I remember thinking "That sounds just like me."

It would be a few more years before I saw my first Before and Afters. It was Kerrie Marie. The first image must've been her when she was 18, lean and skinny and in swimwear. One by one the images showed her getting bigger, fatter and fatter, and I don't think I've ever been so turned on outside of actually having sex. At the final image it was Kerry at her biggest and I my eyes were just gorging on pure sexual delight.

Here's a picture of Geri Halliwell in the dress:

 

EDIT: It should be said that I'm not really into feederism. I'm into weight gain. The sound the same but after much soul-searching I believe there is a difference. Watching a fat woman eat is boring as fuck to me and not arousing. Watching a woman walk into a room noticeably bigger, and listening to her complaining about how she's been greedy lately is very arousing. 

Before I discovered porn, as a middle schooler I used to read a lot of online articles about celebrities being shamed for weight gain or for being big to begin with. I searched for any weight gain stories I could find. Kelly Clarkson, Jessica Simpson, Jordan Sparks, Sara Rue, Nikki Blonsky, there were many others but can’t remember. I read everything I could find and I followed the progress over time. I always wanted to see the latest target of Meme Roth, an obnoxious anti-fat activist. At first I thought this fixation was schadenfreude, because I was basically raised to hate fat people and have a terrible body image. In actuality, it was cathartic to see female celebrities break the rules and enrage the tabloids by being fat in public. They became exactly what I was most terrified of becoming. It was so rewarding to see these taboos be violated, even in cases I wasn’t particularly attracted to the woman in question. I think that’s where my weight gain fetish came from. 

[Guest skinnygirlwantstogrow]

In grade school I was anorexic.

In high school I also developed bulimia along with my anorexia.

Two older male casting directors who were used to seeing me underweight with anorexia, saw me at a direct casting after my bulimia.

Although I had gained weight from bulimia binges, I was still under a normal bmi for my 5'9 height, but not the anorexic girl they remembered.

Despite this, they said that I was "getting fat".

I orgasmed right there and then...the moment they said it.

Ever since then, when I was maybe 15,  I have had this fetish which I have supressed until I intentionally started gaining in 2018/2019.

I am 27 now and weigh 133.50lbs from weighing under 100lbs which was my lowest weight a few years ago.

 

 

 

[Guest grimb84]

On 4/4/2019 at 2:36 PM, couch said:

tl;dr - Definitely knew about it before I knew of/understood sexuality, gravitated away from it possibly due to shame and societal norms, had a "conventional" sexual experience growing up, and reconnected in my early-20s. In early-30s now, and this primarily defines my sexuality though I haven't told anyone, have never acted on it, and relegate it to my fantasies. 

 

I relate to this a bit. It's something I'm coming to terms with recently, and I'm very specific about what I like. I'm not at all into feederism, but I think it's cool that others are. 

It's not always even a sexual thing, it's often more admiring and something I enjoy. But much of it is sexual. 

As far back as I've known I've been like this. I was around 9 and my older cousin had a friend over and she was wearing a crop top with a soft belly. I couldn't understand what I was feeling then. 

It was years later, I noticed that I found bellies attractive, but it wasn't until 16, a girlfriend of mine started putting weight on, after being thin as a stick. I found it very attractive, but she was too self conscious even when I told her I thought she looked amazing. We did have some moments, one sticks out, we were making pancakes and a bit tipsy. I pulled up her tank top and layered some of the chocolate on her belly, making a face, and put some chocolate chips in her belly button. I went with it and so did she, it turned into licking it off her belly with other stuff, maple syrup, jelly, I was amazed at how aroused I was. She was too, so she went with it. This was right as she started gaining weight, so she wouldn't let me do that later, but watching her was a joy. That's when I discovered it. 

It's been a battle to know what to do with it since. That will sound stupid to many here. 

[Papaguena]

I remember watching a video called ‘Violet’s weight gain’ on YT. I think I was about 14. It was like 4 or 5 pictures of a girl in a purple shirt and in every picture she gained a little more weight until her belly was really big. Something strange happened to my penis and I felt the strongest urge to do the naughty thinking about that girl and her belly getting bigger.
Never really acted out on my fantasies/fetish IRL, I do enjoy having sex with ‘regular’ sized girls a lot too.