😲 I Regret Getting Fat! 😭

Incredibly honest and vulnerable. I really don’t know how I feel after watching this. It leads with (imo) some sexy innuendo but then it goes down this raw path and I absolutely couldn’t look away. I’m laying there and 70% of my brain is occupied with this almost interview of a topic and lifestyle I have a vested interest in (as I’m sure we all do), while the remaining 30% is focused on belly jiggles and wondering if it’s appropriate to keep shining the sword. I don’t know how much this can be classified as “fap material” but I’m sure as hell not regretting my purchase, and if you’re as invested in this culture then neither will you. I’m frankly honored that CouchQueen would share this with us, and if I didn’t think that she’s above condolences from a faceless mass I’d say she deserves to cut herself some slack. Loved this clip, pick it up if you can.

I will echo other reviews by saying how much I appreciate your vulnerability and openness in this video. Touching on something like this isn’t easy, and I really admire your courage to do so. I’ve had the same thoughts about my face and worry about getting too fat in the “wrong places,” and in a way it’s refreshing to hear I’m not alone. But I also truly feel for you, because I know how horrible those feelings are and how all-consuming they can become. 

The fantasy is fun, but I really think it does a disservice to people who engage in this fetish to not talk about the things that don’t feel good about being fat/pretend that downsides to being fat don’t exist. Coming from another person who has gone from “fit to fat” — that transition continues to present confusing, difficult changes for me that I still haven’t fully adjusted to. You approached this topic in such an honest, engaging way and I can’t thank you enough for that. I truly wish you all the best as you continue your story ❤️ 

I'll echo what another reviewer said and praise the vulnerability of this video. As someone who recently had a bit of a reckoning with my own health post-weightgain, this video spoke to me in a really, really personal way. I have a complicated relationship with my body and my fatness from a cultural standpoint, a health standpoint, a sexual standpoint, and an emotional-self standpoint. Having this fetish is often a confusing and contradictory thing as all those factors swirl around each other, not mention the how they intermingle with the views of people like partners, doctors, or even just passersby. I appreciate how you visited some really authentic places in this video. Feelings of shame, of frustration, of discomfort. I too have hidden the body that I secretly relished the expansion of. I too have wanted NOT to be seen. I too have hated and loved my body at the exact same time, and worried about how those feelings may or may not affect my future. These feelings aren't erotic to everyone -- I'm not even sure if they're erotic to me -- but they're real. I think there needs to be space to hear them expressed, eroticized, and identified with. 

 

I think it's important to remember that erotic models are in fact creating pieces of art, and that true, holistic appreciation of an artform involves grappling with complex pieces and the complex feelings those pieces inspire.

Amazing video in sorry so many guys on this site are such pussies about it. You can see these dudes have very little experience actually feeding a womab in person if they don't realize all gainers have these thoughts and feelings at times in the back if their minds. Its partially the consequences of gaining that makes gaining so hot. If you cant handle the heat get out of the kitchen boys. This is what real feederism is. A love hate relationship. She used to be skinny and perfect and you expect a woman like that to have no regrets? Of course she does and confessing them its a turn on for her in its own. There might be a lot of truth to what she says but any good feeder worth their salt will make the good sides of gaining outweigh the bad sides and she is allowed to switch back and forth between loving her gain and being freaked out that she is losing so much control.

Damn I don't know how I feel about this video- I think I'm going to have to watch it again! I decided to buy it after seeing your Tumblr post and reading your status update. I've been a huge fan for a while and I think this video was better for me as a piece of feederism commentary as opposed to masturbation material- in that sense I greatly appreciated the in depth discussion and it really made me think about feederism in an introspective way. This video both sobered me and turned me on, if that's even possible! I'm a small woman in my early twenties, and I work in the fashion industry- not to give away too much about the video but when you mentioned having to get different clothes/give away your heels that sent like a shiver of both arousal and fear through me haha! I literally have been thinking about this video all day juxtaposing and placing myself in your position like- what if that was me? I only wish I had the confidence and self assurance that you have to be able to get to such a place with the fetish at this point. I've been in the community for years and just lurk RIP. Sorry for long, rambling review- I just thought it might be interesting for you to get a female perspective- this video was hot but also solemn in the sense that I was able to imagine you as myself, and what the consequences and joys might be of this lifestyle! Anyways, I am making no sense but I appreciated this video, super through provoking and would recommend to others! I really appreciate the effort you put into your content ❤️❤️❤️ 

First video like this I've ever bought, but I love CQ's mix of joy and sorrow over being fat. There's a classical tragedy to purposefully destroying your own youthful beauty (or at least our society's idea of acceptable beauty) and working toward a more transgressive and taboo body (which has its own form of beauty). The more you want to wallow in that destructive power, the more I'm here for it. If you want to go farther and look at pictures of how fit and hot you were, if you want to describe how you used to look down on people who were out of shape and bulging, if you want to make yourself cry over what you've become and how your life revolves around nothing more than eating yourself to death, that's something I'd watch! Reading your posts, I can see that there's an upside, that you like turning your feeder on and getting the attention you get. I can see that you like being lazy and eating anything you want and not having to do the work to get the hard body that's not good for much besides bragging rights. So I'm not too worried about you, and I hope that you can get on blood pressure meds and feel confident enough to gain a bit more. I'd love to see the shock of passing the +100 lb mark, and then when you hit double your 2016 weight. Your mixed feelings are way more compelling than pure excitement or total depression. It's really hot to see you being vulnerable and emotional.

I have read the reviews of this video, and to tell the truth, I was not sure I could watch it. But I kept wanting to watch it, so I finally did. I’m giving it five stars for several reasons. First, it is so brutally honest about the costs of weight gain, and all of us know them. Second, because it is sexy when Couch Queen gets to the point of being totally vulnerable and talking about being unable to control herself, and I guess that’s sexy because control is one aspect of the feeder/feedee relationship. Third, she looks so full and fabulous in this video and that alone is worth the cost of it, and she even talks about clothing sizes, which accentuates this aspect of the video. Fourth, Couch Queen is one of the models on this site that I could just fall in love with so easily because I resonate with so much of what she says, think she is super attractive, and I just wanted to cuddle and comfort her. I had a lot of other feelings about the raw nature of this video, but I won’t go into all of that. I will say, though, that it is one of the truly best videos I’ve seen on here.

The essence of dark feederism... And I love it. This poor sad piggy talks about how she's become trapped in a spiral of shame, gluttony, and increasing helplessness. I look forward to seeing her as she breaks new personal records. Admit it, Couch, shoving your face full of snacks and getting off on your own public degradation is all you have left. Happy to have helped encourage and enable you, seeing you destroy yourself for the sick pleasure of others is intoxicating.

I, as other viewers, appreciate the honestly and courage. Thank you for the awesome video!

I love it I hope you make series out of it, alot feedee go through this all the time most people don't realize this feedee have feeling thanks for sharing 

This was kinda hard to watch, honestly cant even tell how much she’s exaggerating. This feels like Dark-feederism  morbid and hot. I don’t how much of this video is played up but dam I hope you find happiness in who you are. 

i thought it was great hearing how you feel about it 

Honestly, this was a really brave video to put out, and I really respect you for doing so. While I (and many others) still found this video super hot, in a pretty dark messed up way, it's also really thought provoking and my heart goes out to you for your struggles because it seems like you're going through a lot and are unsure with how to deal with it. I just hope you know that, whether you lose weight or you gain weight, we will still love and support you in every way possible:)) much love from the czech republic 

It was definitely hard to watch since but i'd say you have no reason to be embarrassed if others are staring at you in public its due to them not having the same confidence that you have to wear certain outfits same with the weight you mentioned that you had lost then regained, its all about whatever makes you happy.    

I'd advice people to check out the other reviews here and maybe her status update too if they are not sure what the vibe of the content is!

I gotta say, I found it incredibly hot. Dark, honest, naughty. It definitely delves into the darker side of feederism and does that very, very well. At the center of everything is of course the gorgeous Couchqueen. She looks unbelievable and that fat gut has probably never been hanging more. 

All the best to you Couchqueen, I hope you'll be part of the community for a long time still. ❤️

I was really confused about the whole vibe of this video. I wasn’t sure if this was meant to be legit of how CouchQueen is feeling or a role play.

It was definitely a different tone to her usual videos, I just hope she’s alright either way.

I very much appreciate the openness. And the courage.